Tara's Inane Mutterings

2007-05-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

this blog will still be alive.
however,some of my entries will be in my lj.
so if you happen to be a close friend of mine,just ask me if you want to view my lj.
but if your just some inquistive bitch who totally does not care what happenes to me and just want to view my lj out of sheer curiosity,i will not add you back on lj.
thus i will do as i see fit.

2007-04-30T10:55:00.000+08:00

im getting lazy to blog often.
so the sub comm bbq was on friday.
didnt do much there,except listen to lame jokes and watch the guys 'moshing'.
quite fascinating actually.
okie so then after all that excitement,xiaojiawen(a.k.a xiao jia,jia wen and wen minn) and pep xi(did i get it right..) went opposite to eat bbq chicken wings.
the entire irony of it makes me laugh.
cabbed back with jiawenminn.
mann their names make me crack up lah.
its like all connected haha.
okok stop laughing.
went to sentosa for the camp radical outing on sat.
HAHA i woke up late.
and when i reached harbour front this whole huge group of people were waiting for me.
O.O
SORRY!
supposedly to be some freshie-senior bonding shit.
but we all just hung out in our own groups.
uhhhhhhh.
suntanned with carmen.
played in the water with cheryl and the guys.
got sunburnt damn badly and im totally gona peel.
but i think i look nice tanned?
HAHAH.
went to vivo for carls jr with cherly,nick warren fikri and wesley after that.
portobello mushroom burger..
yummy!
had a hard time finishing the whole meal lah.
super filling.
then walked around and was surprised to hear warren say LETS SHOP!
haha damn cute.
went for ben and jerry's after that!
my god yumyumyum and super sinful lah.
carls jr and ben and jerry's all at once.
D:
got motion city soundtrack from nick!
thanks man:D
and thats about it.
im going off lah.
need to meet huiming at one at clark quay.
muahaha.
shat i didnt charge my camera.
alaaaaa nvm.
bye!

2007-04-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

ok im finally alive again.
finally handed up the damn pattern grading today.
kudos to charissa for being such an understanding partner.
love!

so on the first day of camp..
nothing much.
meetings and abit of work.
wanted to go back to bathe but had some gl meeting to attend.

day 2.
freshies arrival.
uhhh was very unenthu at first lah.
yeah lah im damn lazy to blog about camp.
soooooo.
camp was fun!

the omchichiomchi game was funny!
the gl skit for performance night rocked! (esp the "koi" in the koi pond made me laugh like mad lah)
the ever hanging out with friends at night.

needless to say,i was really grouchy during the camp.
so,sorry to whoever i snapped at.

went to sentosa and like omg it sucked.
i was so sleepy i couldnt even stand up after sitting down.
and sand in my shoes.
ugh!
didnt want to queue for the toilets so after sentosa we went to sleep first and bathed in the morning.
super gross but what to do.

the nightwalk was higly uneventful.
the one at dotc was fun-er.
cause like we screamed and ran around so much.
now its for the freshies,and i just had to have the group that wasnt scared of anything.
TSK.

my sub-empire was elvis e.
e = elmo.
haha funky shit.

got cute freshies this year.
like super cute type.(to me lah)

regatta..we won best spirited.
not bad lah.
we kept dancing.
and our cheers were lame.
we were like on warrior mode or sth.
had green and black camo paint on our faces.
fun!

and thats about all i remember.
the rest is all stuck in a corner in my head.
love you camp radical!

genexis meeting!
OMGOMGOMG.
eyecandy galore.
ahaha only wenminn and i know:D

ok can like guys please stop using me to get to know pretty girls.
walau ehy.
asswipes.

im going to bathe now lah.
and revel in all the glory of thunder,lightning and rain.

2007-04-16T10:40:00.000+08:00

oh joy.
5 days of camp here i come.
ugh.
my head hurts just thinking about it.
gona be away till saturday i guess.
im gona continue reading the tale of the body thief now.
bye!

2007-04-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

oh god fuck you all who have hurt me in my life.
dare i name some?
just get out of my life.

im so fucking angsty now.
my mouth hurts from the stupid braces.

i have so many priorities now.
work,school,camp.
i wonder how i take it sometimes.

i wish i had a companion.
its on cold nights like today that make me feel even more lonely then i usually am.
which is really something to say.

sorry friends.
i know you all wana chat to me on msn,but im being a bitch and snapping back at you.
i really suck.

im really feeling that im at the lowest point in my life right now.

meet me by the water - rachel yamagata

Would you please meet me by the water, baby
We'll have a really good time
Would you please meet me by the water, baby
'Cause I can't get you off of my mind

I've been thinking everyday about you
Don't fit anywhere into my life, but that's okay
'Cause I think I might be right for you
And because of that, I'm not scared at all
And everyone says I'm crazy
And everyone says I'm a fool
Would you meet me by the water tonight
'Cause I'm ready to break all the rules

Please don't leave me standing
With my heart in my hand
I can't last here
I'm breaking down,
And no on understands why I got here
But I knew from the very first moment
That I met you
You'd be the one

Would you meet me by the water tonight
Would you please fall asleep
Holding my hand
'Cause I've got everything in store for you, baby
If you'll be my man

to someone out there.

2007-04-12T09:48:00.000+08:00

oh man.
bogged down with work the past few days so i couldnt blog about the wonderful weekend!
ok sooo now that i've handed up the assignment 3 last night,i have the morning free!
YESSAH.

so on good friday:
momma bought me a new phone!
nokia 7390 i think,
its the l'amour pink collection,the clam-shell one.
woooo.
in love with it man.
thanks mommma!
went to cityhall with sis in the evening.
window shopped a little.
but i got spoiled by haji lane and everything i saw in the city was ugly..

sat:
normal workday at gramophone.
period came in the morning.
bad cramps in the afternoon.
good food at night.
and a stupidly slow trudge through a trecherous path home.

sun:
PHANTOM OF THE OPERA at the esplanade!!
omg it was damn cool.
i just loved it.
especially the crossing of the bridges down to the dungeon.
and the last part,where the phantom disappeared from the chair.
if i had a chance,i would love to go again.

and monday till now..
boring school again.
at least i saw someone(:

went to deliver the freshmen orientation packages too.
went with wenminn and we got lost around an area we knew.
or thought we knew.
hahahaha.
sick shit walking in the hot sun.
ugh.
my bag is spoilt too,
the green canvas one with the leather and leopard trims.
its still usable,but the leopard print strap part is tearing away.
):
luckily,dad bought a leather satchel for me!
woohoo.
i've always wanted one.
thanks dad.
and now im off to read.
anne rice's tale of the body thief.
bye y'all<3

2007-04-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

would you choose love over friendship?
or friendship over love?

on a side note,i really dislike people borrowing my stuff without permission.
like a ruler,eraser,my work in progress,etc etc.
i know it seems selfish of me,but will it hurt you to at least ask?
i've lost countless stuff man..
like in novala takemoto's "kamikaze girls" or "shimotsuma monogatari", the lead character momoko knows that once she lends people stuff,theres a chance that she wont get them back.
thus she doesnt lend people things that are closest to her heart.
so like next time if you want to use my grading ruler or whatever it is of mine that you dont have,please ask.
or if im not there,return it to me once i come back and not continue using it because theres a high chance that i need to use it.
i hate asking people wheres my stuff cause its a total waste of time and breath.
you take my stuff without permission and when i need to use it,i have to ASK YOU for it?
ppppfffffftt.

as you can tell,im in a bad mood now.
im damn pissed off at everything.
from the annoying guy that calls me tada,to my toenails,to the weather.
UGH.
piss offf.
i dont even feel like going shopping anymore ):

2007-04-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

Love will tear us apart
-Joy Division

When routine bites hard,
And ambitions are low,
And resentment rides high,
But emotions won't grow,
And we're changing our ways,
Taking different roads.

Then love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Why is the bedroom so cold?
You've turned away on your side.
Is my timing that flawed?
Our respect runs so dry.
Yet there's still this appeal
That we've kept through our lives.

But love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

You cry out in your sleep,
All my failings exposed.
And there's a taste in my mouth,
As desperation takes hold.
Just that something so good
Just can't function no more.

But love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

i love this song.
the one by joy division is good.
but i especially love the cover done by nouvelle vague,a bossa nova group.
really puts me in a romantic mood.
hmmm.

2007-04-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

28th march:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA!
your like 23 and thats damn old lah.
but im gona be 18 so i guess im old too..
anyway,she treated me to waraku!
and salmon sashimi was yummilicious!
it just melted in my mouth.
ugh hungry now and i just had dinner D:
it rained heavily that day and i didnt bring my umbrella.
talk about unlucky man.
whenever i bring a brolly with me,it NEVER rains.

30th march:
met shamayne and clarice at 9.45am.
i cant believe i actually woke up so early lah.
ahaha.
headed down to parkway macs where we devoured our pancakes with sausage.
as again,it was damn delicious.
i love having meals with good company!

31st march:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOSHIYA!
my love from dir en grey.
hes like the best bassist.
and hot to boot woohoo!
but hes an old man..
and i have yet to achieve the dream of seeing Dir en Grey perform live.
sigh.
i will go to japan one day for the sole reason of going for gigs!
*when i actually have the money ):

1st april:
played a joke on azizah.
bought fake cockroaches,put one in the cash drawer.
she was talking to a customer while getting the change.
so she was looking at the customer and feeling inside the cash drawer and all of a sudden she screams and threws it at me.
damn funny lah!
razi was standing infront,and both of us were like anticipating her scream.
and when she finally did it we laughed like mad.

and today?
ARGH SCHOOL WAS KILLER.
pattern grading.
omfg.
damn headache.
i shudder to think about it.
im in such a holiday mood.
gona have royce chocolates now.
sis got them from her friend.
YAY!
bye loves<3

2007-03-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

heres a brief intro to my ultra busy week..
weds:
gymming with kaori and farrah.
we went swimming too!
so we actually exercised ok.

thurs:
gained all the calories back by having a pizza party at kaori's place.
omg.*headdesk*

fri:
adm bbq.
woke up at 3pm..
slacked around and packed for camp.
by the time i got to parkway,it was raining like mad.
i bought a cute purple umbrella the day before and i was hoping for a chance to use it,and when the chance finally came i didnt have the umbrella with me. -_-"
so got on 15,wenminn appeared on the same bus and when we reached tampines,the whole area was damn dry.
argh.
no dinner so we went opposite for fried fish beehooooon.
god i love that stuff.
headed back to school for the DOTC.
the fun-nest part of that camp was slacking with friends till the wee hours of the night and the night walk.
the night walk was pure madness.
wenminn,jiawen and carmen were in my group,along with some other welfare girls.
so heres the thing,my entire group consisted of GIRLS.
scaredy cat girls too haha.
we kept screaming whenever we encountered "ghosts".
but argh.
it was damn fucking creepy lah.
the "ghosts" kept scaring us.
especially our group.
lepaking with friends in the middle of the night was fun too.
but theres this guy during the camp.
fucking annoying.
like trying to butt in and i dont want to talk to him.
i bitched about it to some people.
fucktard.
okie lah it was quite fun.
mass dance on the last day.
cant stand it the design dance is so hard to learn.
i was born with 2left feet! D:
then it was clean up and debrief.
went to parkway with jiawen and wenminn..
we left our baby animals at gramaphone.
saw regina there.
chatted abit then she had to go play tennis.
window shopped abit and went home.
then i showered and napped and here i am.
gona watch dvds now.

2007-03-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

*cross posted to love-crusader*

went out with kaori yesterday..
hung out at liang court.
she was talking crap but then things got serious.
like i found out what happened in the past and why i was hated by people that dont even know me.
confirmed it with farrah at night..
turns out that people close to me have been spreading fibs about me.
that person was pretty high up in the social ranks last time.
and thus people who dont even know me hated me for no reason.
and this girl,lets just call her windy.
apparently,she was in the same tuition class as me for like what,2days?
so she claimed that she tried to be nice to me,but instead i was a complete bitch to her.
and so she ranted on her lj and everything.
i mean,i was being perfectly nice to her.
stop trying to ruin my reputation when i havent done a fucking thing to you.
maybe she took rumours about me being an anti-social bitch for real.
if i was an anti-social bitch,would i even take the time to smile and be nice?
thats what hypocrites do.
*cross posted to lazy-daisies.blogspot.com*
they act all nice to you,and when your back's turned,they bitch about you.
its so fucking fake.
the old jrock clique was just a bunch of liars and hypocrites.
if its one thing i hate in this world,its hypocrites.
and i for one,have so much experience with them.
they act all friendly with you,like OH BFF! and the next thing you know they're going to your other friends and telling them how much they hate you.
ugh!
its so goddamn hard to find true friends in this world.
almost everyone is fake.
people i treated as one of my best pals have stabbed me in the back.
i know it was all in the past,but its still hard to believe.
but i believe in karma.
people who have backstabbed me and bitched about me doing stuff i've never done will get their desserts.
some dont get the stuff that they want,some are just wallowing in their own regret at not keeping the friendship,while others are still waiting for something wonderful that will never happen in their lives.
as for me?
all's good,my friends stick by me,my family loves me,and im not poor,and i can afford the stuff i really want.
its a fair world,watch out 'friends',
what goes around,comes around.
you'll be the one suffering in the end.

2007-03-19T13:07:00.000+08:00

man the dream i had last night was really weird.
a guy and a girl i once knew.
i dreamt of them together at the same place,and i happened to walk by.
i screamed at them.
for all they did,at whatever they cared for.
man..
it felt good to scream at them in a dream,now imagine doing it in real life.
god,bliss.

watching the used's dvd Berth now.
its fucking good.
the used is one of the bands i really love.
too bad they probably wont come to singapore.
censor's probably find that they use too many fucks and ass and cunts and etcetc on stage.
blah.

2007-03-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

tokyo ska paradise orchestra is the best live band everrrrrr!!!!
they're like highly energetic and super fun to watch!
i can barely describe how it went lah.
skanked so much there.
but the guy next to me..
omg what a wet blanket can?!
he sat down throughout the whole performance with his arms crossed.
and when i started skanking,he looked at me like im a total idiot trying to dance.
he probably doesnt understand what its all about.
ASS!
it started at 11.05pm and ended about 12.20?
it was just so gooooood!
just that the guy next to me really spoiled my mood lah.
but heck!
i was so damn high yesterday..
god,all of you who missed it really missed out on alot man!
saw kaori on my way home..
she saw me from the back and called me to ask if i was wearing full black.
she was in lolita.
imagine her skanking and moshing :O
like totally unglam please.
anyhow,cabbed back.
all i had to do to get a cab straight away was to dance across the road XD
and lo and behold a cab appeared -_-"
ok so im being lame.
shut up.
okays theres this new romeo+juliet dvd out.
the music edition!
code1 with a super nice cover!
but its 35bucks i think.
omg i really want itttttttttt.
its like my favourite romance movie.
ah well.
watching gilmore girls season3 now.
woohoo.

2007-03-16T18:12:00.000+08:00

bill and tom kaulitz.
just about the most perfect pair of twins ever.
in germany and the rest of the world.
hahah they went through puberty well.
tall and lean now.
and bill's voice broke well too so he doesnt sound weird.
but honestly,tom should lose the baggy clothes.
it makes him look so hiphop yo wassup type guy.
other then that,hes a'okay!
and bill..
bill bill bill.
someone mentioned he looked like victoria beckham.
thats gross.
ahahaha.
but hes still perfect<

going for tokyo ska paradise's concert tmr.
11th hour show.
taxi fare's gona be a biatch.
i really want to go for the rachel yamagata gig as well..
but the ticket's 88bucks and i have noone to go with.
and im working.
hahaha.

2007-03-16T10:35:00.000+08:00

mars is gona crash into earth.
worms would start falling from the sky.
ok fish would start falling from the sky.
worms are too much.
mom would start speaking japanese to me tonight.
argh!
im just cranky.
get me my damn coffee!
the brother was playing the ELECTRIC guitar with the amps jacked up all the way at 10am.
what.
the.
fuck?
im sleeping here hello?
i dont feel like staying at home today listening to him play.
his presence at home annoys me slightly.
or just that im not in a guitar mood and theres no coffee here.
argh.
i'll pop by parkway later or something.
D:

2007-03-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

went out with kaori and farrah today.
haha damn fun lah.
love going out with both of them because its as good as taking crack.
watched music and lyrics with my colleagues on friday.
super funny lah the show.
"pop goes my heart!"
omg laughed like mad.
and wen minn just called me in the morning to tell me that we MIGHT be kindergarten classmates.
and she just sent me the picture and OMG!
we WERE classmates.
hahaha very funny.
finally handed up the photography assignment.
and like bliss after that lah.
went to bugis for pedicureeeeeeeeeee.
played alot of new games on my dslite.
super fun and i keep sleeping late.
so right now,life's good.

oh and i do so love a guy that can play the guitar WELL and sing with a husky voice ala john mayer.
woohoo!
and he shouldnt be a half-assed poseur like a certain someone i know.
or knew actually.
i severed ties with him on my part.
which was a pretty damn good choice!
my close friends would agree(:

okays so i've got a really weird pain in my rib just directly below my left breast.
i better check it out..
its recurring and i dont want to die yet!
im too young.
fweeh.

okay time to shut up now.
i'll post the kindergarten picture on friendster when i have the time.
ahahaha.

2007-03-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th REGINA!
so someone can go clubbing already huh.
dont get too excited and go every night ah!
studies are more important!
love!

anyways,finished watching onetreehill!
now to wait for season3.
faster come out please..i cant wait!

went shooting with huiming today.
went places around singapore that i've never been to ever.
quite cool huhs.

okayyyy nothing much to update..
cheers!

2007-03-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Not ready to make nice by Dixie Chicks

gosh i love this song.
it just makes so much sense you know?
the album's pretty good as well.
bought rachel yamagata's "Happenstance".
everyone should get it!
its really good.as in every single track is worth listening to..
went to vivocity with sis today.
finally man!!!!!
it was huge and all.
but the stuff i got there were just..
pants from mango and a cami from topshop.
i mean hello!parkway has those stores as well and i just had to get them from vivo right?!
WTF.
but its cool,as long as i've shopped.
went to pet safari and omg the shiba was soooooooo cute!
i want one!
went to daiso as well.
had the urge to buy a pail,and the sandcastle building set and the small umbrella.
hmm next time i guess..
since its so near sentosa,before heading to sentosa we can just like go build sandcastles and shit.
yay!
so im really sleepy now..
and theres this mango wallet that i really really want.
its a long wallet,pink leather with gold studs.
its 39bucks and i dont know if i should get it or not.......
argh.
theres so many things i want but cant get.
this stinks.
ah whatever.
im gona get the romeo and juliet movie soundtrack.
its good.
all the indie artists of 1996.
i love the movie as well XD
leonardo decap was just heavenly there.
wtf happened to him now?
fweeh.

2007-03-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

oh myyyyyyyyyyyy.
severe lack of updates man!
okays nothing much anyway.
went to school to do my prints,panicked over blotchy work and all the usual.
marathoned One Tree Hill and omg its like damn nice to watch.
watching season2 right now.
went to NYJC with sharmin for jiayee's performance!
she acted as a guy poor dear.
she was lamenting on how aunties mistake her as a boy and random girls going up to her and saying shes cool XD
went to chompchomp for the usual meal of stingray,friedyoutiao,hokkiene mee,sugarcanejuice andcheekuay.
yumyum.
i gained 2kg wth!
damn annoyed lah.
the last block i really ate alot man! -_-"
ok lah better shut up and go watch one tree hill.
BYEEEE!

2007-02-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

im still relishing the fact that i hugged billy martin from good charlotte before.
woohoo go me!
ok whatever.
sliced my finger at work today.
and the big boss is utterly traumatizing.
boohoohoo.
work tmr.
photog trips next week!
need to complete the assignments.
6 more bxw prints and 6 shots in color.
zomg.
im going to bed.
damn tired!
had mad fun playing with the ds with my colleagues.
we were all screaming in the store after we closed.
imagine what the coffee bean people thought.
hmmmm.

2007-02-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

its sakito's birthday today!
happy one year love!

got heatstroke today.
headache,dizzy spells.
woah.
went back to take a rest after shooting abit in arab street.
need to go there tmr.

2007-02-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

yo kaori!
this is for you to steal you hear me?
LOL just kidding.
went over to kaori's place for a sleepover on friday.
had mad fun lah.
they practically threatned me to make me stay over ok.
like 'we're not gona friend you anymore!'
damn primary school lah can!
but you know i still love you too right????
<3
and kaori nearly killed me with her farts lah.
super gross.
but farting is a healthy activity.
people just do it discreetly.
so we ordered macs at 2.30am.
bombarded the operator with our long line of sauces and they forgot to give me my ketchup!
w7tunbgrjbngrig4nr476y4tugvnrea you macs!!!!
nah im just kidding.
so we woke up really early even though all 3 of us slept through about 5 different alarms.
farrah and i left at aroun 8.
walked out halfway and discovered we left stuff at kaori's house.
i mean we said CYA SOON!
but we didnt expect it to be THIS soon.
BLEH.
anyway im off to finish watching supernatural!
bye!

2007-02-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year.
may everyone have good wealth and fortune upon them!(and me lah duh!)
was disfigured today,so didnt go visiting in the morning.
my lip was swollen again!
RAH.
and its sakito's birthday on the 22nd feb.
which is thurs!
i better go make some nice clothes for him.
poor boy.i've neglected him.
):
oh well.
borrowed the dvd for supernatural.
damn hot lah the guys.
woohoo.
im off to watch it.
BYE!

2007-02-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

did printing today.
photopaper is so freaking expensive.
but like the first test strip i made.
its so freaking precious.like my baby.
haha wth.
wasted alot of photopaper lah!
17bucks for 25 sheets.
lucky for us that cheeyong provided us today.
made 2contact sheets.
both screwed up,cause they're underexposed.
tmr im gona try again mannnn.
today something happened in the darkroom.
the radio got louder and louder,yet there was noone adjusting the volume.
we were like oh fuck,hurry hurry finish up and lets turn on the lights.
damn freaky lah!
i enlarged a picture of happy as well!
but i want to redo it for better contrast and make it sharper.
its too blur and grey for my liking right now.

i bought a dress for chinese new year.
its like 65bucks.
i bought it with my own pay.
but i still want that topshop one.

i dont know why i just cant answer my mom nicely and politely.
i really dont know.
oh my god.
kill me.
i have issues.
i really need to be nicer to her.
oh damn.
fuck.

2007-02-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

omg slap me with a tuna fish.
went to town with huiming today to shop.
saw many many stuffs.
we liked alot of the same stuff.
pretty weird shit cause no one has the same taste as me.
mooks jacket.
damn nice lah.
shit.
bought a basic top from topshop.
gona wear it with shorts or skinny jeans with suspenders.
went to parkway to meet regina.
the bloody 36.
i waited for one fucking hour lah!
omg pissed off.
finally we met up lah pls.
havent seen her in soooooo long.
missed her man.
in our busy life,theres really little time to meet up and shit.
so went down to topshop and mphosis.
bloody hell,
shouldnt even have stepped into topshop lah!
stupid dresses.
now i want them so much.
the grey one and the green and purple with hearts.
shiat!
i really want them.
49bucks and 99bucks.
WTH.
slap me with a tuna fish again lah.
like real hard.
then tore my heart away from the dresses and went to have dinner at pasta mania.
the pasta was soooo peppery.
wth!
bad day.
then went to macs to slack.
i miss doing that.
seems like i've always got something on or work to do.
rarely do we get the chance to chill especially when we both dont have any work to do.
sigh.
we agreed to go clubbing on my birthday.
this year is my year.
070707.
i hope no asshole spoils it man!
if not,the person and gtfaad kthxbai.
gtfaad=get the fuck away and die
OKAY!
im all set and ready to get those 2 dresses outta my mind.
better go sleep soon.
work tmr.
hur hur.
nights!

2007-02-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg.
i developed my first roll of film myself!
i am feeling a sense of achievement.
hurhur.
huiming and i were panicking like mad inside "the door"
HAHA.
like omg i need to pee that type of panic.
it was so hard to pry open the film canister!
argh.
its like total darkness in there.
no difference if you open or close ur eyes.
had fun groping around in the dark.
ok that sounded wrong.
after that it was time to start adding the chemicals and all that stuff.
panicked again cause the timer we were using suddenly shut down on us.
wtf.
luckily there was adora and the pid people around to help us.
when you finally see your film its like woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i was so happy!
jap test today too.
i passed!36/40.
not bad lah considering the fact that i only started studying today!
discussed the script for the play.
i swear its gona be super lame and paisey to act infront of the class pls.

i really wanted to smile sweetly and go up to a certain person and slap his face.
i really did.
but its really not worth my time.

my hands have brown spots omfg.
disfigured mannnnnn.
no one else has that on their hands!
what if they never come off.
they should be caused by the chemicals that we used for developing.
le sigh.
chee yong said it might happen.
how come it only happened to me?!
suay sia.
but it was an accomplishment today!
cant wait to print it out on actual photo paper!
ok meeting the group at 9am tmr.
argh.
better go sleep soon.
bye loves!<3

2007-02-06T10:37:00.000+08:00

watched john tucker must die and lovewrecked yesterday.
farrah didnt feel like going out so i didnt force her to shop with me cause thats just mean.
hah.
so i went over to gramophone,returned the dvds and borrowed more.
haha.
slacked the whole afternoon please.
thats my original plan anyways so whatever!
going to chinatown to shoot later.
supposed to meet at 11am but we all were damn tired so meeting at 12 instead.
HAHA.
we're such bums lah.
jap presentation today.
i havent prepared anything.
dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2007-02-05T11:11:00.000+08:00

can you guys just stop pushing the unwanted jobs around?
and why do they always fall on me?
the orientation camp.
just because no one in my course is not in any main commitee.
i mean,come on.
so its just going on to the highest authority in school,and then someone is going to get "nominated" and get the dirty job.
its always the jobs that noone wants.
rerusaert,eraflew and nimda.
if you force me to do something i dont wana do,i'll do it halfheartedly,and that'll screw things up.
but if i really have no choice,then whatever.

mom's back from holland.
she bought me a pair of cute ankle boots!
i just dont know how to match them with my clothes.
sigh.
watched 3 movies yesterday.
nacho libre,shes the man and just my luck.
all were damn good lah.
channing tatum and chris pine were the eye candies for the night.
woohoo.

my sis bought hermit crabs.
-_-
i dont know whether to say their cute or gross.
they have cute shells and when they walk its really adorable.
but when the actual crab comes out i.e feeler like stuffs and claws its like zomg.

supposed to meet farrah later.
going chinese new year shopping.
hurhur.
i think shes gona be late though.
when i called her she just woke up.
and i thought i was gona be late.
sigh.
class at 6pm.

workworkworkwork,both school and at gramophone.
going to shoot tmr with huiming and rachel.
got jap later at 6pm.
it really sucks going to school at 6pm!
people are going out of the school,and im walking in.
really wtf.

fall out boy is coming to singapore!
75bucks a pop.
woohoo.
3rd march,at expo.
im most probably going.

im thinking of closing down lazy-daisies and moving to love-crusader on livejournal.
hmmm.
somehow the room smells of lemon tea,and i have a blocked nose.
so what in the world am i smelling?
O.O

2007-02-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

end of the first week.
went to shoot around the cityhall area with huiming on thursday.
fun sia.
my photos came out quite well as well,albeit for the fact that i had some underexposed ones lah.
haha.
buts thats only a minority soooooo whatever!
having a blocked nose.
its super bad.
using up alot of tissues.
i know i should use a hanky but thats gross cause all the mucus would be there and dried up.
eep.
im grossed out now.
ate alot these few days.
especially today sia!
business canteen had no kaya pie,and we ended up eating a full meal at mensa.
wtf.
then while studying for jap,rachel came along with cookies.
and i ate more.
argh.
i swear on monday im eating only one meal.
or eat fruits.

Don't let go of your dreams.
look into the future,learn from the past.

you didnt deserve me.
and i didnt deserve to have someone as hypocritical as you.

love.
its like fireworks.
beautiful,yet it dies out quickly.
i dont get it,and yet i need it.

eating a white chocolate truffle.
savouring it.
yummy.
i found out my eye candy's name!
muahaha.
and like wtf kaori's friend's bf is so fucking hot i cant stand it.

UGH!
ok i need to sleep.
working tmr sia.
if i dont sleep now tmr i'll confirm wake up late.
hurhurhur.
g'night!

2007-01-29T10:38:00.000+08:00

END OF BLOCK!
and the start of a new one.
japanese and basic photography this time.
woohoo.
the cheongsam competition was yesterday.
it was damn last minute lah.
cant they get the models first THEN make the dress?
all the cheongsams were tiny!
damn wtf.
i had to wear the yellow halter one.
quite nice lah.
woah sneezing like mad now.
must be someone talking bad about me behind my back.
damn.
so the last block was pretty hellish.
so much work man.
chionging like mad on the very last day of the block.
luckily,wenminn's and my batik came out quite nicely!
phew.
fip's mini collection.
my theme was PUNK.
hai damn lame lah.
i couldnt think of any other theme besides underwater galore.
haha i love coral reefs and stuff.
ok thats it for my life i guess.
nothing much except that i have no time to go shopping.
DAMN IT.
chinese new year clothes.
can say bye bye ahh.
okok if i dont get ready for school now im gona be late.
so..
tata!

2007-01-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

tp jam and hop was cheena this year.
so many chinese artistes lah.
only after they left then it got fun.
the jam part was..so-so.
the hop part was fun-er?
i swear people who look like they dont like to dance can really boogie.
like woah.
when we were all dancing,there were 2 really creepy guys!
like one of them kept dancing next to me,the other one kept following dom where ever he went.
:/
ok so enough about that shit lah.
tp open house on thurs to sat.
saw a bastard on saturday but whatever.
thurs was spent in class.
fri was spent in class and design space.
sat was spent guiding people around!
need to do my production drawings now.
if i dont complete it by tmr im so fucking screwed.
i've been slacking too much.
damn.
body aching now.
wtf.
open house was fun.
especially the people i was with.
cheers!

oh yeah.
did i mention im getting rid of rubbish in my life?

2007-01-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

food poisoning really sucks man.
i puked the moment i got home on thursday,had a fever at night,and felt really like sick and tired on friday>.<
sigh.
at least im better now.
watched high school musical to find out what all the hype was about.
its nothing much lah.
maybe if i was still in primary school i'd enjoy it.
but its just so cliche.
boy meet girl.they sing together.they go through trials and problems.boy ends up with girls.
real life is just not like that.
if it does,it'd be wonderful.
hahah WHATEVER.
anyway,went to work on sat and sunday.
talked about mad shit with my colleagues..
issued the challenge to azizah,razi and gerald but none of them could do it:P
omg that :P is so freaking act cute so just shut up.

i am not afraid of you and i will beat your ass.

2007-01-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

calm down girl.
i'm getting worked up over something so trival.
it's not worth my time so just forget it.
people that do stuff like THAT ought to be shot.

plus.
school work is just piling up.
goodbye freedom,hellow sleepless nights.
im off to complete my designs.
bye!

2007-01-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

first day of school.
i slept at 1.30am the night before,resulting in me waking up late,and therefore almost late for class.
which is expected because i always oversleep anyway.
haha.
FIP was pretty fun,had to do 2 illustrations.
one casual and one fantasy.
but the materials required are gona kill me.
im thanking my lucky stars that i worked during the holidays.
12piece basic set of copic markers= $72
marker paper=$14
0.1/0.3/0.5/0.8pens= at least $8
tracing paper and sketch books and printing of inspiration pictures and materials for mood boards.
argh?!?
and $8 for batik and some other stuffs.
plus the need for rubber gloves and an apron.
oh myyyyyyyyyyyyy.
72+14+8+8=102
ack!
not to mention the $60+ textbook i purchased earlier.
no wonder design students are always broke.
sigh.
textile manipulation was OMG.
i was so freaking sleepy in the afternoon.
thankfully,jiawen gave wenminn and i a big survivors pack of sweets from shanghai.
phew!
that kept me awake hurhurhur.
then it was home sweet home on a rickety old bus 15.
bloody hell.
walked home in the drizzle,halfway through,it started raining like mad so i had to run.
slipped and almost fell on the steps outside the house.
hit my elbow on the grills.
theres no bruise so no worries.
oh yeah.
on the way to school,when i looked out of the window,i just HAD to HAPPEN to see a cat that was run over.
fuck?!?
it was just knocked down,seeing that the body wasnt squashed and the blood was fresh.
sigh.
R.I.P dear ginger cat.
T.T

2007-01-01T10:01:00.000+08:00

happy new year loves!
may everyone has a safe and exhilarating year ahead!

got a fucked up customer yesterday.
his dvd slipped off the table and when i already confirmed the sale,he said "i dont want it cause you dropped it."
he gave me this look that really pissed me off and i was like WHATEVER.
its like he looks down on me you know?
bastard siaaaaaa.
all the other customers queing behind gave him weird stares so yay.
but the dvd was only $28.95 and im sure the person who eventually buys it will deserve it more!
we dont need customers that dont want stuff after its been dropped unless its something fragile or stuff like food.
omg.
princess princess is soooooo lame lahhh.
the story line is like totally wtf?!
i was laughing like mad last night.
my nailpolish is bloody chipped.
time to go repaint them.
maybe tmr when im not working.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
got work at 11 later.
better go prepare now.
bye loves!
we all better have a great year ahead of us!*shakes fist at thye sky*

2006-12-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

omg regina's christmas present made me cry!
and we all thought tara wasn't the crying type.
argh.
but reading the story she wrote really made me damn touched.
its great having her as a friend.
i've already said this,but im gona say it again.
i love you regina! BFF!<3

i've decided some things in life are just plain nasty.
its the new year soon.
i've been good(rather good) this 2006.
hope 2007 will be a better one.

noone will walk off with a crime on their back.
what they deserve will eventually come.
so,it's best not to plan revenge and such on people that do bad stuff to you.
just wait for karma to pay them back.
this way,you'll also live a happier life.

oh and everyone must catch night at the museum.
its freaking funny!
but the lame thing was yesterday i was sitting beside this two girls.
they laugh at the parts that aren't even funny.
and their laughter for the funny parts are 5seconds too late.
its like DOHHHH wtf.
ok im gona shower now.
bye!

2006-12-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

happy christmas!
(this greeting
bought saosin's album already!
had nydc with sis on the 22nd.
yummy cheesecake sia.
then it was kaori's birthday party on the 23rd!
happy 18th darling!
went for work on the 24th.
had a mad and kinda digusting talk with my colleagues.
and its christmas today!
listening to snow patrol makes me feel like im in japan again.
dont know why.
i think its cause the shopping mall near our hotel had it playing on loop.
haha!
ok lah gtg now.
gona choose new curtains for the room omg!
our curtains are all ripped and torn -_-"
damn washing machine.

2006-12-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

the people that i met in this life.
most are great.
some are weird,but still ok.
worse still,some are the most fucked up people ever.
this year was the worse for me.
the amount of fucked up people i met this year alone is more then the amount of fucked up people i met in my past 16 years of life.
its amazing.
i dont want any contact with those people now.
yes i am running away.
yes i am hiding in my shell.
yes i am being childish.
but to save myself the heartache that will continue if i keep in contact with them,i am willing to do anything.
friends will not do what they did to me.
its just bullshit.
i am clearing the year's rubbish away now.
its my freaking new year's resolution.
goodbye fuckers.

but to everyone else,i still love you!
regina,whos in hk enjoying herself right now.haha BFF biatch! love!<3
clarice and shamayne,who refused to visit me at gramophone yesterday cause they were having an afternoon nap.
sharmin and caryl,who still keep in contact with me and visited me at gramophone.
kaori,hysoka,mizu and kyoru,even though i dont talk much to you,your still my buds forever!
clement,thanks for consoling me and sending me wonderful songs.
to my design school mates(wenminn,jiawen,sarah,pepper,dsc people,etc),thanks for putting up with my rubbish and mood swings and the other crap i gave to you while in school.

thats it for now:D
going to sleep now.
BYE!

2006-12-18T15:17:00.000+08:00

i wana outrace the speed of pain.

should get some piercings done soon.
kthxbai!

2006-12-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.

2006-12-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

for once the internet in my house is working.
off today.
i feel like getting the my chemical romance cd+dvd aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.
so my want list:

1)another pair of skinny jeans,this time in black.
2)a fucking haircut,mom says im channeling paul twohill and that is not cool.
3)a pair of calf high boots.maybe doc martens in red or white but we'll see cause boots cost a bomb and im not a rich girl.
4)more t-shirts cause they're my daily staple clothing.
5)killswitch engage "as daylight dies" and deftones "saturday night wrist" and saosin's self-titled new album.
6)more clothes in general,particularly a cute jsk and peterpancollaredblouse from baby the stars shine bright.
7)black ankle length leggings.
8)NAOYA! sakito needs his boyfriend man.btw,naoya's gona be a school a head from volks with a normalsd13boybody.
sakito needs more clothes as well,so im gona have to go fabric shopping soon.

someonel said i was pretty masculine.
i'd prefer the term androgynous thanks.
it just depends on how i keep my hair.
if its long,i'd look like a girl.
if its short,i'd look like a pretty boy.
at least my body has curves lah.
imagine if i had a washboard front and no ass.
hmmm.
i've been thinking alot these days.
getting mighty pissed off for nothing.
but i guess im just being angsty.
oh oh oh.
i think all emo boys should be SLIM AND LEAN.
ok so slim's a girlier word.
but emo boys should not be chubby!
BAHHH.
saw a chubby emo boy at gramophone yesterday.
omfg my eyes.
even my colleagues said it was a digusting sight.
haha im such a bitch kthxbai.
its raining!
time to go play in the rain.

2006-12-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

"i dont feel like dancing"

love the song its so freaking catchy.
makes you just wana dance.
contrary to the song title.
had alot of sales for the cds and dvds i was playing when i was in charge of air play at gramophone.
im proud of myself:D
there are so many cds i feel like getting.
damn it.
went to slack with regina on 7th dec.
had mad fun playing at the arcade and blowing balloons and whacking the crocodiles.
ahhhhhh.
omfg and i got caught up in listening to john mayer's "no such thing" again.
its old,but fucking good man!
its great to listen to it in the morning and in the car.
im learning about different genres of music and im digging Olivia.
shes a singaporean jazz/bossa nova singer based in japan.
she has a pretty voice!
also,the tokyo cafe cd is not bad,especially if you like chillout songs.
ehhhh.take that's new album is pretty cool.
"beautiful world" is nice.
susan wong is not bad as well,jazz covers for songs like "when i fall in love" and "sway"
customers say her voice is a tad too sweet for some people.
heh.
alright lah im going to sleep soon.
reading harry potter and the order of the phoenix again.

"i am invincible as long i am alive."

2006-12-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

Fidelity: Regina Spektor

(Shake it up)

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart

i love the chorus.
i can relate so well to it.
working these few days.
tired shit man.
ah well,going to bring the dog out now.
after 'dont look back in anger' by oasis though.
haha.
old song.
i love it.
happy's acting cute now.
i should take a picture and post it up sometime.

p.s
my feelings for that person are dead and rotting.
get it?
goodbye.

2006-11-29T16:13:00.000+08:00

met farrah to go to arab street and bugis yesterday.
started some christmas shopping already:D
alright.
my life is pretty boring now.
bill kaulitz from tokio hotel is hot.
he has this certain androgynous look that i find really appealing.
woah.
listened to dusk and summer which is dashboard confessional's latest album as well as +44's debut album till your heart stops beating.
really good songs from both bands.
oh oh oh tokio hotel as well.
alaaaaa im off to re-read my harry potter series now.
bye!

2006-11-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

went for guides camp!
only campfire night,the 2nd day and for the cleaning up ahh.
it was fun!
catching up with the guides.
woahh i sure miss being in camp.
it was really good this year,they made a playground complete with swings,seesaw and a rope ladder.
they bought safari beds for the huge canvas tent as well.
slept on them XD
when you look out from the canvas tent,you have a really good view of the playground as well as the moon at night!
did bell chicken,buried chicken and newspaper fish for lunch the 2nd day.
got stabbed by the fish fins,and when i was squeezing the lemons for lemonade,it was so painful>o<
did toe weaving as well!
i miss the feeling of doing toe weavings,its so relaxing.
helped the guides out with the candle craft as well,got burnt by the wax D:
i got tanned!!not alot but still!!!
theres a distinct slipper line on my feet XD
cooked muah chee and some really yummy pea and cashew nut thingie.
did lots of stuff but i just cant remember?!
omg im so forgetful.
ah well.
went for work on sunday!
and monday...
went back to kc to help them oil the zips and powder the tents.
haha folded the canvas tent and the flysheet.
eh ahhhh.
i cant remember what happened.
something happened in my house last night,
and sometimes i really wonder..

do words really mean so much?
mother,im really dissappointed in you.
thanks for venting your anger on dad,sis and me.
as for the brother,hes always the precious child so he will not get any of your harsh words.
you said we dont respect you.
HYPOCRITE!
BIAS!
she totally screamed on the phone at me.
which happens all the time and she'll just slam down after shes done screaming.

i was so fucking pissed last night.
alot of fucked up shit happened last night.
i think the family's falling apart.
shes been tolerating for so long,and she finally snapped.
divorce was mentioned.
filial piety was mentioned.
she even said,"i am bloody pissed off now and im scolding you"
thanks man.
you think we hate you because we just do?
think about your own actions.
telling your colleagues that we dislike you for no reason.
what a bunch of bull.

goodbye.

2006-11-23T22:43:00.001+08:00

im fucking amused.
done with this block!
it was fun sewing my own skirts.
i love the flared one!
i got a B+ for it and im mighty proud of myself:D:D:D
had mad fun this block,wenminn and i came to school in the same outfit not once,but TWICE.
TELL ME HOW COINCIDENTAL THAT IS MAN!?
super funny shit,all that stuff about the purple/black stalker.
met regina and zen today.
walked around ikea,had swedish meatballs then bused down to bugis.
omgomgomg.
the dresses there are so cute and cheap.
bought a top from poa paragon.
AHHH I LIKE THE PINK AND GREY DRESS.shit man,
i want to shop.
UGH!
bye my darlings.

2006-11-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

2006-11-18T09:26:00.000+08:00

went to arab street yesterday.
bought different fabrics.
a really cute blue,yellow,black and white retro one(but it has random Victoria's Secrets printed on it-_-)to make the flared skirt.
a pink and yellow batik one which im gona use to make a pleated skirt.
and a pink leopard print which im gona wrap books with.
also bought black fluff and gold sequins to go with the leopard print fabric.
ahahaha.
how fun!
i really love the batik one.
cant use it for the flared skirt because once its folded in the bias cut,it doesnt look as nice anymore:/
and i cant wait to use the leopard print one lah.
i love zebra and leopard prints for some strange reason.
ahhhh gotta get ready for work already man.
want to shower first.
BYE!

2006-11-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

ahhh.
finished the 2nd skirt today.
finally man!
now to anticipate the drafting of the third and final skirt -_-
woohoo.
i've been feeling mixed emotions these days.
one day im feeling the saddest i've ever been,and i'll be the happiest girl alive the next.
its really mad shit.
and i cant seem to link purevolume and darklyrics to this blog.
ugh.
but im feeling pretty relaxed now.
cause i have no work to do tonight.
i just had a whole bunch of grapes before AND after dinner.
they were just so juicey and sweet.
omg i love eating seedless purple grapes.

2006-11-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

omg lah.
went to town with clarice yesterday.
yesterday was like eyecandy galore for me.
HAHA.
saw one in design school,another at taka.
and the one at taka,we were either subconsiously stalking him,or he was stalking us.
we bumped into each other at paragon twice -_-
cool funky shit.
bought the care bear's tee!
yay! \^o^/
totally broke now.
im planning to buy some cds from gramaphone tmr.
:D
and im hungry so im off to cook some maggie and egg for myself!
BYE!<3

2006-11-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

ready for some shit?
name letter thingie!

T- You're loyal to those you love.
A- You like to curse alot.
R- Fcukin Crazy
A- You like to curse alot.

koped this from wenminn's blog haha.
its quite true lah.
i swear and curse everyday,and im loyal to my loved ones and i am fucking crazy.
lets try my surname as well.

C- You're wild and crazy.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass.
A- You like to curse alot.

hmmm.
3x you like to curse alot.
thanks ah.
hahahaha.
so if your bored,try it out.
it might boost your ego,or it might pull your ego down.
whichever you prefer lah.

A- You like to curse alot.
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- you live to have fun.
M- one to have fun.
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- one of the best damn bf/gf ne one could ask for.
Z- Always ready.

went shopping at bugis and town.
bought two sets of tops and earrings.
woot!
went to little india as well,bought indian bangles.
they're purple and really pretty!
hmm.
started sewing the pleated skirt already.
drafting it was a horror D:

2006-11-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

i finally finished my first skirt ever!
its too big for me,so its super hipster lah.
hahahahahaha whatever.
i feel so accomplished:D
just gotta do the illustration for it tmr and do the other side of the pattern.
some idiot threw away mine!
fuck!
anyway,work at gramaphone was fun!
haha.hopefully i wont lose my job there:/
working in a music store is cool too.
like,since i love music and all...
standing for 10hours is no joke though.;
i thought noone would approach the staff for help,but throughout the day,i realised that i was wrong.
many people will ask you for help.such as looking for a particular cd or whether we could recommend them some stuffs.
hmm.
my colleagues are cool!
some listen to jrock like dir en grey,luna sea,malice mizer,lareine and baroque!
omgomgomg i was like so happy mannnnnnn.
found plenty of cds i want to get..
HIM's dark light. in flames leeches. matchbook romance.
omgomgomg my money is going back there.
HAHA shiat.

come on prince charming.
where the fuck are you in my life?!
screw it.
HAHA.
fuck.
bye!

2006-11-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

i got a job i got a job i got a job!
at gramaphone's parkway branch!
starting work tmr.
like YAYS!!!!!
im so happy lah.
anyway.

you live it or lie it.
i choose to live it.
this is my world,and no one can take it away from me.

and one last question.
would you go with your friend's ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?
i know i wouldnt.
thats final.

goodbye.

2006-11-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

i made a pocket!
its damn hard to make lah.
bloody hell!
im so bad at drafting i think my skirt cant fit me.
measurements all wrong and shit.
hahaha.
i've been sleeping real early these days.
im knocked out at 10pm every night.
i rise at around 9am and proceed to slack away.
mmmmmhhhhhh.

2006-11-01T11:00:00.000+08:00

ok im so bored that i did a survey.
ewxpect more of this kinda shit.
because of the fact that i start school at 2pm everyday.

*130 Things People Want To Know About You*
.: The Basics :.
Name?:	Tara
Age?:	17
Gender?:	female
Location?:	Singapore
Hair color?:	black
Eye color?:	dark brown
shoe size?:	8?
height?:	171cm
interests::	music,fashion,makeup,nail polish,toshiya,miyavi,dir en grey,cosplay,punk goth,etcetcetc
.: Favourites :.
food:	japanese?chinese?
drink:	milk tea
music style:	rock.
music artist/band:	dir en grey,shakalabbits,the used,avenged sevenfold,bullet for my valentine,jack's mannequin.(the list will go on and on and on)
tv show:	who's line is it anyway?
movie:	plenty to type!but i wont because i am lazy.
thing to do:	sleep.slack.draw.talk.shop.game.
ice cream:	any flavour.im an ice cream freak.
colour:	black,gold,purple.
song:	for now?its Cross the borders by SHAKA LABBITS
book:	too many to list.im re-reading Eragon now.
computer game:	Final Fantasy.(without a doubt man!)
board game:	huh?
dessert:	ice cream duhhh.
quote:	fuck.
animal:	dogs and horses!
holiday:	japan!
number:	7.
name:	uhm. tara?
.: Friendship :.:	i treasure my friends.
who's your best friend?:	regina.
other close buddies...?:	shamayne,clarice,sharmin,kaori,hysoka,kyoru.
last friend you hung out with:	kaori,hysoka,kyoru!
last friend you hugged:	regina!
last friend you saw a movie with:	june and my sis!
last friend's house you went to:	kyoru!
any friends you cant stand?:	YES!
any friends you've regretted becoming friends with?:	nope!
if so, who?:	.
do you have a lot of friends of the opposite sex?:	nope.
most annoying friend?:	i dont know!
most preppy friend?:	who cares?
darkest friend?:	i think im the darkest out of my lot of friends.
hyper-est friend?:	i think im the hyper-est too!
nicest friend?:	THEY'RE ALL NICE!
funniest friend?:	hmm.they're all funny damn it.
meanest friend?:	well well well. we all have our mean sides.
most outgoing friend?:	hmm.im not sure.
shyest friend?:	clarice.
hottest friend?:	i've got plenty of hot friends.i feel inferior around them.
friend with the best personality?:	they all have the best personalities in the world.
friend with the best music taste?:	well well well,my friends and i all listen to different genres in music.
friend who sings the best?:	.
friend who laughs the most?:	we all laugh whenever we hang out.
friend you enjoy being around the most?:	regina.
friend who your parents love?:	my parents dont really know my friends.
friend who your parents hate?:	my parents dont really know my friends.
friend your parents don't know about?:	FUCK SHUT UP!
.: Romance :.
got a crush/boyfriend?:	no.
if so, what gender?:	no.
name?:	no.
how far have you gone?:	no.
with who?:	no.
the last person you kissed::	sakito.
the last person you hugged::	regina.
the last person you wanted to kiss::	no.
how far you do want to go (at this point in life)?:	i just want to exceed everyone's expectations.
hottest friend?:	.
hottest celebrity?:	toshiya and miyavi.
if you could date any famous person, who would it be?:	hmm.tough one.i cant pick!
dream date::	no.
dream honeymoon::	no.
age you want to get married (if not already):	no.
number of kids you want to have (if not already):	no.
straight?:	yes.
gay?:	no.
bi?:	yes because i have girlfriends and boyfriends.wtf.
would you rather your boyfriend/girlfriend be gay or bi?:	hmm.bi.
.: This or That :.
Kerry or Bush:	none.
rap or rock:	rock.
pop or country:	none.
movie or tv show:	movie.
girl or guy:	both.
fire or water:	water.
death or life:	death for now.
cheerleader or punk:	punk.
prep or jock:	:/
kroger or publix:	wtf is that.
walmart or target:	none.
avril or jay-z:	none.
pink or black:	black.
cheez it or cheese nip:	cheez
cat or dog:	dog
tape or glue:	tape.
msn or aim:	msn.
mall or movies:	mall.
writing or typing:	i like both.
phone or computer:	computers and phones.tough one.
baseball or football:	baseball!
p.e. or health:	isnt p.e related to health?
high school or middle school:	high school.
dunkin donuts or starbucks:	starbucks.
amc or united artists:	.
walgreens or CVS:	.
brownies or cookies:	both!
reading or writing:	reading.
surveys or polls:	surveys
livejournal or xanga:	livejournal.
Yellowcard or Ashlee Simpson:	yellowcard.
AFI or Jojo:	AFI.
Green Day or Beastie Boys:	Green Day.
kill or be killed:	depends.
eat or be eaten:	eat.
hate or be hated:	hate and be hated.
ocean or pool:	ocean.
singing or dancing:	singing.
heart or peace sign:	peace sign.
halloween or christmas:	halloween.
question or answer:	question.
fear factor or the o.c.:	none.
the simpsons or who's line is it anyway?:	BOTH.
Disney or The N:	disney!
pancakes or waffles:	hmm.waffles.
strawberrys or blueberrys:	strawberries!
yogurt or frozen yogurt:	frozen yogurt.
kiss or hug:	hmm.hugs mean more.kisses could just mean lust.
guitar or drums:	...ELECTRIC BASS MAN.
Take this survey \| Find more surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site

2006-11-01T09:58:00.000+08:00

HYAKU IS LOVE<3
halloween yesterday.
had mad fun with kaori,hysoka,kyoru and jodie.
went over to kaori's after the dsc meeting.
nothing to wear,so i borrowed her yukata.
its so pretty but so short O.O
and thus,
kaori = harajuku girl
hysoka = kabuki-cho guy a.k.a hentai
kyoru = johnny's jr guy
tara = kyoto geisha

camwhored alot.
kaori and kyoru and hysoka! send me the pictures quick!
hahaha.
schools fine as well.
learnt how to use the bloody sewing machine.
stabbed myself with the needle.
attempting to learn drafting as well!
im really bad at it though.
basket.

when im alone,i tend to think alot.
and when i think alot.i feel like killing myself.
shit fuck.

2006-10-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

just a song i found really meaningful.
by one of my favourite bands as well!

CROSS THE BORDERS by SHAKA LABBITS

IN MY LITTLE CAR ON THIS LITTLE ISLAND I DRIVE
THE ROUGH ROAD TAKES ME TO AN UNKNOWN DESTINATION
I SING FOR MYSELF FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

HOW MANY IDEAS DO I HAVE IN MY HEAD NOW?
I WANA KEEP CHANGING MYSELF
I DON'T NEED A LIMIT

A LOT OF DETOURS ON THEIR WAY
EVERY TIME WHEN WE LOSE SOMETHING IMPORTANT
WE LOOK BACK AT OUR PAST
THE ROAD IS VERY STRAIGHT,TO BE ALIVE IS LUCKY
NOW I REALIZED HOW MUCH LIFE IS PRECIOUS
SINCE I'M ON THAT JOURNEY

NOT ALL DREAMS ARE MADE TO COME TRUE RIGHT AWAY
BUT I WON'T BE SAD ABOUT MY FATE
I WILL NEVER LOSE MYSELF AND MY PAST

SURVIVING IS MY FATE
I'VE GOTTA LOT OF THINGS
I LOST BUT OUR BONDS OF FRIENDSHIP JUST GOT BETTER
THE ROAD IS VERY STRAIGHT,TO BE ALIVE IS LUCKY
NOW I REALIZED HOW MUCH LIFE IS PRECIOUS
SINCE I'M ON THAT JOURNEY

found their first album in HMV in japan.
got their concert album too!
sadly,i couldnt find their later cds.
but thats cool,i can get my friends to get them for me cause they're going to japan as well!
hmm.
do i really look as though i dont care?
fuck.

2006-10-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

and the block is finally over!
screw brand building!
i'll miss colour class though,it was really fun.
ostracizing jessline,and going home with wenminn.
HAHA.really lame shit.
next block i'll start at 2pm and end at 6pm.
woot this means i can wake up late!
and no jostling with the morning crowd on the bloody 15:D:D:D
ok and now onto my erm.trip report!

20th October Friday:
had school in the morning.
met shamayne and clarice!
i love them<3
flight was at 11.

21st October Saturday:
Arrival to Japan!
headed to owakudani boiling valley thingie.
it smelt exactly the same as it did two years ago.
but it sure looked different.
ate milk soft cream there.
it was so creamy like omg.
the lunch was gooooooooooood.
bento with teriyaki chicken,croquette,codfish,rice,pickles,breaded prawn and miso shiru.
then it was to the hakone tour!
took the same pirate ship like,2 years ago.
had a reunion with my "boyfriend" on the ship.
(ok its a stupid inside joke lah)
the weather was so cold there!
ok not freezing,more like aircon type.
SUPER NICE I TELL YOU.
but it wasnt a clear day,so when we reached mount fuji,we couldnt see much:(
camwhored alot,while sis was taking pictures of the scenary.
alaaa make me seem so narcissistic lah!
then it was back to the hotel.
some onsen thingie.
we wanted to go have a good soak.
but lo and behold,we saw a man walking out of the female one.
so we were utterly grossed out and decided to stick to the capsule like toilet in the room.
hahahahaha.
we had deep sea crab for dinner omgomgomg!
i wanted to try that for sooooooooooooooo long.
and boy was it good!
and then after dinner,we went to walk around and take some photos.
then it was sleep!

22nd October Sunday:
we went to ginza!
and had kobe beef!
IT WAS LIKE OMGOMGOMGOMOMG MELT IN YOUR MOUTH TYPE DELICIOUS.
;_;
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
pasta salad!
potato salad!
omg hungry!
goddamnit.
we went to this toy store as well.
got the hard gay toy! its super funny lah.
walked around ginza,they closed the street at 12!
my gosh.super shopping madness for rich people.
took the bullet train as well!
urm yeah.then..
we went to palette town.
ferris wheel!it was pretty.
venusfort as well,but there wasnt much to buy there.
then it was off to asakusa kannon temple.
bought my paper umbrella!its so pretty!
ate ice cream from a vending machine which is cool shit.
then it was off to the hotel.
sashimi,tempura and soba for dinner.
the scallop sashimi was sooooo sweet.
and the salmon roe!it pops wondderfully in your mouth.
sorry im bad at describing food.
then we took the train to tokyo tower!
and omg its like super romantic there!
i would love for my boyfriend to bring me on a date there.
AHHH.
wishful thinking biatch.
then it started raining when we were about to leave:/
it was so cold ahhhhhhhhhh!
oh,went to the tokyo hard rock cafe too!
we reached the hotel at about 1.
took a bathe and hurridly went to sleep as we had to get up at 3 the next morning.

23rd Oct Monday:
took the first train to tsukiji!
apparently there was this guy checking me out like mad shit.
haha hes cute man.
i shall dub him "Ginza Boy" since he got off at the place to transfer to ginza.
woohoo!
ok cheapthrill,but at least japanese guys look at me.
singaporean guys are all so.fweeh.
ok so we got lost a little around the area.
but we managed to find the place in the end!
it was damn cool lah!
the tuna auction!
tuna.was about as wide as me.
AHHHHAHAHA.
super huge they used saws to cut them. -_-
walked around the market too.
it was cool seriously!
then we went back to the hotel.had breakfast and went to sleep like a mad pig again.
woke up at 12 and went shopping!
didnt get to buy clothes cause the season wasnt right.
autumn clothes for singapore weather?yikes.
had pasta for lunch.
mmmhhhh yummy!
then momma went back to the room to sleep,while sis and i went to wander around the district.
went to BrandX.
ooohed and ahhed at the signatures!
dir en grey!plastic tree!and alot more!
damn cool.
and then the trouble began.
went into this anime building.
8floors of anime stuff.
omg stress!
every level we had something to get.
AHHHHHH.
we decided to pay at the 5th floor and hurry run out of the building.
bought alot of socks.
then bought bentos for dinner.
did the final packing.
had icecream again.
ahahaha i ate icecream like everyday.

24th Oct Tuesday:
went to the Imperial Palace in the morning.
it was cold and rainy.
the palace was beautiful!
then after the tour,we went to shinjuku.
went to takashimaya,but didnt get anything.
had omu rice for lunch.
really yummy!
went to HMV to get cds.
then it was back to the hotel.
SAW A HOT HOT HOT GUY ON THE TRAIN.
managed to get a pictue of him,but you could only see the top of his head.
sad shit:(
then went to buy more boxes of pockey.
and it was the dreaded moment,the ride to narita airport.
sighhhhhhhh.
bought shu uemura eyeliners.
there was a school there,with like all the students.
there was this particular group of guys like singing and doing weird actions with their hands.
i was laughing so much cause they look really funny and cute.
and then its home sweet home:(
had one last cone of soft cream though:D
i love the cones,normal waffle cones with sugar grains inside.
YUMMY and you can tell im a sweet addict.
and thus ends my japan trip with us reaching singapore at 1.15am.

sigh.
i miss you japan.

2006-10-25T03:11:00.000+08:00

I miss Japan already.
gotta rush for my assignments now.
gona die.
i'll update more at the end of the week.
hopefully i'll be able to post some pictures up.
i bought like.385673 stuffs from there.
shu uemura eyeliner,cds,magazines,socks,clips,earrings,a hardrock cafe wristlet thingie.
what else?
cant remember lah.
but all i know is that i owe my mom and sis a tonne of yen.
:(!
ok im gona shower now.
bye!<3

2006-10-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

im leaving for japan in approx 3hours!!!!
im not as excited as i could be,but i think its just cause im tired.
\^o^/
met shamayne and clarice today!
super fun siaaaaaa.
coming back on weds morning,as in early in the morning.
thanks to those who said bon voyage to me!
and replies to tags!

sharmin: YES!:D

vic: GOONG! i just started watching.on youtube.

caleb:japan rocks!i love it there,just that i cant speak japanese:(

fifi:i'll miss EVERYONE LAH!<3

kaori: its japan time for me today! OHMYYYY.lets watch goon together next time ok?

waiiiiii i'll miss everyone:)
i'll be back safe babies!
submission week next week.
sorry to wenminn and jessline! i'll go through the powerpoint slides to make sure they're perfect!
and i need to go check that i've packed everything now.
bye my loves!<3

2006-10-20T00:48:00.000+08:00

"let's take a stroll through the late night drizzle."

i love walks in the light rain.
will someone be willing to take walks in the rain with me?
i think i know who will:D
my girl pals of course!
but they'll hold an umbrella.
haha
on a side note.
todays THE day!
im going to japan in about...11 hours!
woohoo!
i know i should be feeling excited and all that crap.
but theres this part in me that just feels so down.
boo.
but i had mad fun with wenminn and jiawen just now.
playing with the mask and my hat.
looks super freaky.
took some pictures,but i cant seem to send them to my computer.
sad shit.
oh wells.
im off.
i'll try to update one last time before i leave tmr!
bye loves<3

2006-10-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

"come clarity."

fucking freezing my ass off in the tp library now.
i forgot to grab my jacket on the way out and thus im suffering the consequences.
got a new show to watch.
GOONG!
stupid wenminn lah.
but the guy is damn cute lah!
went shopping with wenminn yesterday.
to taka,heeran,raffles and peninsula.
bought the mask,a cap and a shirt.
haha.
broke now lah!
going to japan tmr.
IM A HAPPY GIRL :D
well,not really.no im not happy.
but still,i've got to pretend to be happy.
AH.
whatever.

2006-10-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

"you got to be cruel to be kind."

oh myyyy.
brand building presentation went well today:D
he actually said it was good!
my first one sucked,so this time im really happy!
and i got full marks for my color assignment.
pretty cheapthrill today.
happy over getting good marks.
wai.

2006-10-16T19:45:00.000+08:00

i got tagged by sharmin!

- Single, taken or crushing?

single and unhappy

-Are you happy with your life now?

no.

- When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?

yes.it happened to me but the relationship fell apart): the wounds are still fresh.

- Have you ever had your heart broken?

yes.

- Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?

cheating love?it depends.

- Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?

do i really love the guy?is he worth my time and love?

- Have you talk about marriage with another before?

with my girlfriends.but never with a guy oh no fucking way.im too young and i just want to enjoy being in love without being tied down with marriage.

- Do you want children?

maybe.but probably yeah.

- How many?

2?

- Would you consider adoption?

yes.

- If someone likes you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?

tell me straight.

- Do you enjoy getting into relationship?

yes,but if the guy hurts me,then no.

- Be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?

..

- Do you believe in love at first sight?

probably depends on the guy.

- Are you romantic?

hmm.not very romantic,but not exactly retarded when it comes to romance as well.

- Do you believe you can change someone?

me?nah.

- If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?

hmm.this is difficult.

- Do you easily give in when you are fighting?

no.

- Do you have feelings for someone right now?

yes.but he won't return my feelings anymore.

- Have you ever broken a heart?

yes.

- If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?

AHHH.thankfully,regina and i have different taste in guys.i like tall skinny ones.

- Are you missing someone now?

yes.

this survey is making me depressed.
fuck!
shouldnt have done it.
and i think im getting stomach flu.
eating,vomitting.
gross!
i bought my purple and black stripped shirt.
finally got the monies to get it.
planning to get the other band tees.
im turning into my old self again.
the lonely sad sick twisted sadist dressed in punk holding a penknife.
goodbye.

2006-10-16T07:46:00.000+08:00

am i moving in the right direction?

2006-10-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

wtf.
my mom says i look like an underfed child :(
do i?
she says my bones are all sticking out and i lost my breasts.
what only sia..
bought a pair of jeans from mango today.
:D
i puked my guts out at 5am in the morning.
what in the world is happening to me?!
fuck.

2006-10-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

OH MYYYY.
the subcom camp was fun!
took my mind off what mattered most in my heart.
the games were interesting.
especially the brothel one,with the erotic dance positions.
HAHA.
i really laughed my ass off on this game.
and those pregnancy jokes.OH MY. its really damn wtf.
i was FA for Hallmark,and boy was it fun!
our flag was a sequinny pink and pretty bimbotic with gold glitter and a star and a crown.
HAHA.
then they had the nightwalk,where us(the FA's) had to hide.
my hiding space in espace lah.
fucking dark and scary.
and ben and jason scared the shit out of me and abby):
thank you abby for staying at the espace with me.
if i was alone i'd just DIE.
then it was debrief,meeting and shower.
played cards for awhile before falling asleep.
and at 3fuckingam in the morning,they just HAD to start screaming.
thanks to the guys who went out to scold them cause i was irritated:D
adventure learning programme was first for today.
we slacked around in the shade talking and playing murderer.
had mad fun with the walkie talkies.
but the messages we sent were really retarded.
HAHA tak boleh tahan sia.
hmm.
had lunch,then it was to the LT for another game.
then..mass dance!
the marymoon one ah.whatsitcalled? new age girl?
allllaaaa i dont know sia!
danced with junwei,who came up with the conclusion that anyone who touched his hands will get pregnant.
HAHA.damn funny sia.
then it was packing up and then break camp.
met shamayne at parkway for dinner.
OH MYYY.
i felt so much better after talking to her.
it really lifted my spirits and i guess i just need to bitch to get it off my chest.
thanks everyone for your concern.
im really fine now(:
was not coping with it well at first,but when camp finally started,i decided it was time to push my sorrows away for awhile and just have fun and enjoy!
and boy was i glad i did:D
anyway,i gotta do my painting soon.
got six 4"by4" designs to finish D:
gona go blind lah.
my eyes are so fucking tired already.
i think i'll just sleep early and wake up refreshed tmr so i wont do a shit job on my painting:D
ok lah i better stop ranting so much.
HAHA.
bye loves!<3

2006-10-13T14:19:00.000+08:00

this message is dedicated to Chron:
no hard feelings and still friends ok?
i hate relationships that end on a sour note with the guy and girl ignoring each other ):
had a great time with you,and i'll try to continue to do so!
:D

edit:
i changed my mind.
FUCK YOU CMC.
fucking cheena hypocritical bastard.

but for now,i'll light my own candle.
and i wont let anyone bring me down by living for myself only.
off to do my color book now.
i'm doing black,my favourite! :D
bye loves.

P.S
im thankful for my mother,she was the one that comforted me through the night.
she kept vigil next to me till i finally cried myself to sleep.
love<3

2006-10-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

"So Yesterday"

You can change your life - if you wanna
You can change your clothes - if you wanna
If you change your mind
Well, that's the way it goes

But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat - cause I wanna
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back

At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

[Chorus:]
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away

Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay

You can say you're bored - if you wanna
You can act real tough - if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough

Thank you... you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

[Chorus]

If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

[Chorus]

not really a fan of hilary duff.
but this song makes me happier.
lets just say chron broke up with me.
good night my lovelies!
i hope i'll survive the night(:

2006-10-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

i told myself i would never ever in my whole life cry over a guy.
guess that was a lie to myself.
i kept my emotions to myself for almost the whole day,but when i was finally alone at the interchange,i cried.
i've never felt so helpless before.
goodbye.

2006-10-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

"Dear, I fear we're facing a problem."

Lovefool,by the cardigans.

we dont talk and meet up enough.
i guess cause we're busy and i'm piled down with stupid assigments.
what more,camp this friday to saturday.
second major presentation on monday,which equates to another sleepless night on sunday.
but deep down in my heart,i know i want to see you.
sigh.
it's been hell.

2006-10-11T18:56:00.000+08:00

*Really Long Survey (over 200)*
What is your name?:	Tara
Are you named after anyone?:	why don't you ask my mom?
What's your screename?:	tara
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	NO?
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	hmmm.this is a tough one.AHHH. blake.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	no one,i like my name just fine.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	tera. -_-
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	not really.
Basics
Your gender::	female
Straight/Gay/Bi::	straight.
Single?:	not really,no.
If not, do you want to be?:
Birthdate::	07071989
Your age::	17
Age you act::	14
Age you wish you were::	18 forever!
Your height::	171cm
Eye color::	dark brown
Happy with it?:	yeah why not?
Hair color::	natural black:D
Happy with it?:	YES!
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	Righty
Your living arrangement::	with my family in an apartment.
Your family::	both parents,sister,brother,dog,hamster.OH and Sakito!
Have any pets?:	dog and hamster
Whats your job?:	student and aspiring designer
Piercings?:	one on each ear.
Tattoos?:	nah.
Obsessions?:	stripes and checkered and black clothing.and lip piercings on certain guys.
Addictions?:	strawberries and milk tea.
Do you speak another language?:	does chinese count?
Have a favorite quote?:	nope.
Do you have a webpage?:	this blog!
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	yes.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	kinda sorta.
Do you have any secrets?:	who doesnt?
Do you hate yourself?:	sometimes.
Do you like your handwriting?:	yeah it looks fine to me.
Do you have any bad habits?:	yeah.
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	you are so tall.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	everything is my fault.
What's your biggest fear?:	hmm.worms?
Can you sing?:	well,i'm not exactly verry good at it,but im not tone-deaf either.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	no way.
Are you a loner?:	yeah.
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	depends on whats going on in my life at the moment.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	mmmh,yeah.
Are you a daredevil?:	depends.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	plenty.
Are you passive or agressive?:	agressive,yet passive at moments.
Do you have a journal?:	yeah.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	that im not sure.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	i wouldnt change myself,if not i wouldnt be myself already would i?
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	yes.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	nope,i'm still young.
Do you think life has been good so far?:	it's been cool.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	learn to give and take.
What do you like the most about your body?:	my hands.
And least?:	my butt -_-
Do you think you are good looking?:	sure why not?as long as i am comfortable with my looks.
Are you confident?:	kinda sorta/
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	huh what?
Are you perceived wrongly?:	sometimes.
Do You...
Smoke?:	nope.
Do drugs?:	nope.
Read the newspaper?:	sometimes.
Pray?:	not much.
Go to church?:	no.
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	no.
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	no.
Take walks in the rain?:	yes.
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	not really.
Drive?:	no.
Like to drive fast?:	i cant drive damnit!
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	yes.
Hurt yourself?:	yes.
Been out of the country?:	yes.
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	no.
Been in love?:	yes.
Done drugs?:	no.
Gone skinny dipping?:	nope.i aint skinny enough anyway.
Had a medical emergency?:	no.
Had surgery?:	yes.
Ran away from home?:	yes.
Played strip poker?:	no.
Gotten beaten up?:	yes.
Beaten someone up?:	no.
Been picked on?:	yes.
Been on stage?:	yes.
Slept outdoors?:	yes.
Thought about suicide?:	yes.
Pulled an all nighter?:	yes.
If yes, what is your record?:	the whole day.
Gone one day without food?:	yes.
Talked on the phone all night?:	yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	nope.
Slept all day?:	yes.
Killed someone?:	nope.
Made out with a stranger?:	nope.
Had sex with a stranger?:	no.
Thought you're going crazy?:	yes.
Kissed the same sex?:	no.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	hmmmm.maybe.
Been betrayed?:	yes.
Had a dream that came true?:	yes!
Broken the law?:	yes.
Met a famous person?:	yes.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	no.
On purpose?:	no!
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	no.
Stolen anything?:	yes.
Been on radio/tv?:	yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?:	yes!
Had a nervous breakdown?:	no.
Bungee jumped?:	no.
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	yes.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	yes.
Miracles?:	depends.
Astrology?:	kinda sorta.
Magic?:	yes.
God?:	not really.im not the religious type.
Satan?:	maybe.
Santa?:	nope.
Ghosts?:	yes..
Luck?:	yes.
Love at first sight?:	love at first sight?maybe lust at first sight.hahah wtf.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	guess so.
Witches?:	yes.
Easter bunny?:	what?no.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	yes,it all depends if we want to remain faithful or not.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	yes.
Do you wish on stars?:	nope.
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	no.
Do you think God has a gender?:	no.
Do you believe in organized religion?:	no.
Where do you think we go when we die?:	into a grave.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	yes.
Who is your best friend?:	regina.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	hmm.my sister.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	give and take in life.
Your favourite inside joke?:	none.
Thing you're picked on most about?:	i've picked on?like bully?
Who's your longest known friend?:	i have alot,but the closest "old" friends would be clarice,shamayne,sharmin and regina.
Newest?:	yaqi.
Shyest?:	shyest.probably clarice.
Funniest?:	mmmhhh.sharmin.she makes me laugh at her.
Sweetest?:	hmm.
Closest?:	regina.
Weirdest?:	:/
Smartest?:	i don;t hang out with smart people.
Ditziest?:	sharmin.
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	my sec school mates.
Last person you talked to online?:	cant remember.
Who do you talk to most online?:	im not sure.it depends on whos online!
Who are you on the phone with most?:	i dont have much time to talk on the phone.
Who do you trust most?:	this i'm not sure.
Who listens to your problems?:	regina,clarice,sharmin and shamayne :D
Who do you fight most with?:	hmmm.sheril.but we always make up in the end.
Who's the nicest?:	let's see.
Who's the most outgoing?:	shamayne.
Who's the best singer?:	uhhh.im not sure.
Who's on your shit-list?:	i dont want to say it outloud man.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	NO?
Who's your second family?:	sakito.
Do you always feel understood?:	no.
Who's the loudest friend?:	how would i know.they might act all demure and shit.
Do you trust others easily?:	no.
Who's house were you last at?:	hmm.i cant remember.probably clarice's.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	..
Do your friends know you?:	yes.
Friend that lives farthest away::	fumei!
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	depends.
What do you find romantic?:	late night walks in the rain.
Turn-on?:	personality and sharp features.
Turn-off?:	well,that beard thingie that singaporean guys try to grow,you know the few straggly LONG hairs on the chin.
First kiss?:	mmmhhh.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	touched,but sorry no go.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	maybe not.
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	not really.i mean,whatever lah.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	no.i am so superficial D:
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	well well well.
What is best about the opposite sex?:	what?
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	horniness.no offence.
What's the last present someone gave you?:	i don't know.
Are you in love?:	well,i guess you could say that.
Do you consider your significant other hot?:	rather hot.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	huh what a ghost of a person?
You wanted to kill?:	desmond.
That you laughed at?:	wenminn and val chan.
That laughed at you?:	wenminn.
That turned you on?:	no one.
You went shopping with?:	wenminn.(why is wenminn appearing so many times -_-)
That broke your heart?:	huh.no one.
To disappoint you?:	my mother.
To ask you out?:	as in a date type?or what.
To make you cry?:	i won't say it out.
To brighten up your day?:	erm.my classmates in general.
That you thought about?:	well well well.
You saw a movie with?:	chron,shamayne and yaqi.
You talked to on the phone?:	uhm uhm uhm.i dont even know when was the last time i used a phone.
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	can't remember.
You saw?:	my mom.
You lost?:	my granddadd):
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	i just came back from school damnit!
Will it be with your significant other?:	im not going out.
Or some random person?:	are you retarded.
What are you wearing right now?:	a cream singlet.
Body part you're touching right now::	im touching the keyboard,but my ankles are touching each other.
What are you worried about right now?:	my life.
What book are you reading?:	no time to read.
What's on your mousepad?:	i dont have a mousepad,i use the touchpad.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	tired,annoyed,melancholic,worried,psychotic
Are you bored?:	pretty bored,thats why im doing this survey.
Are you tired?:	yeah.
Are you talking to anyone online?:	nope.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	nope.
Are you lonely or content?:	rather content,yet lonely at times.
Are you listening to music?:	yes.
Take this survey \| Find more surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site

this survey was done last night,this morning and right now.
so the answers might be a little different.
haha yes i am THAT bored.
but i've got to trace my collage.
woohoo!
it looks pretty:D

2006-10-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

i'm exhausted.
physically and mentally.
i want someone to sugarsugar me.
like i do to others.
):

2006-10-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

the presentation today sucked.
dont talk to me about brand building unless you want me to flare up at you.
D:
in my previous post,people have been asking who i was refering to.
"where are you when i need you?"
some people thought i was refering to chron,others thought i was refering to themselves,and yet others thought it was my family.
well,i would like to clarify that chron has been there for me,my friends have been supporting me(albeit silently due to promos and lack of time) and my parents,well i know they are supporting me in life,just that they do not show their care and concern.
i appreciate each and everyone of you and i would like to tell you all I LOVE YOU!<3<3<3
and thanks for being there when i needed you.
BUT what i really needed yesterday was "TIME".
stupid brand building lah.
made me super tired and irritated.
slept at like 3am after tossing and turning in bed.
chron gave me a wake up call at 7am.
i picked up,mumbled that i would go shower and all.
I FELL ASLEEP AFTER HE HUNG UP WTF.
tara tara,you need to rid yourself of this bad habit.
once your up,your up.
DON'T GO BACK TO SLEEP!
damn.
after brand building,wenminn and i went to the library to cut and paste our color stuff.
then we decided to shop at bugis.
we both slept on the 33,it was so stuffy and when we woke up we felt sticky and disgusting.
we had banana fritters with ice cream and it was yummy i tell you.
we also bought a skirt each,a real bargain and the skirts were quite nice as well.
:D
we took 33 back.
it's great living near bugis and town.
im going to bed soon,so bloody tired man!
i slept on the way to school,i slept on the way to bugis and i slept on the way home.
wtf.
ok good night!
i love you<3

2006-10-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

i am a procrastinator.

sigh.
where are you when i need you?

oh snap.

2006-10-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

painting the different shades of the rainbow is making me blind.
and the haze is giving me a bad headache.
I GOT MY PINK MOOKS JACKET! \^o^/
happy happy:D
went shopping with wenminn yesterday.
went to geylang serai with her on friday too.
the food was good man.
after shopping yesterday,i proceeded to suntec to jalan abit.
then walked to raffles,then to bugis and back to raffles again.
wtf.
damn tiring sia.
met chron and yaqi,they had dinner,and we went to walk around.
i want to get the stickers.
so cute lah.
rainbows and stars:D
i want to stick on my phone.
woohoo!
we went to the esplanade roof top as well.
but the haze was uber bad.
nothing much to talk about.
bye!

2006-10-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

oh my,i woke up late yesterday.
walau i had to run to the busstop.
damn tiring and i looked like a complete idiot with my file and bag.
in the school library now.
with wenminn right across me.
we're chatting on msn now.
LAME.
going to geylang serai later to jalan jalan!
fun sia.
and no school tmr!
woohoo!
but presentation on monday morning.
but after that,NO COLOR CLASS.
cause keejan wanted to give us the day off for work.
HAPPY:D

2006-10-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

school was alright.
pretty boring at moments,but fun the rest of the time:D
took a nap in the library.
damn uncomfortable sia the chair.
wenminn painted my nails too.
blue,with black flowers or stripes and jewels.
nice:D
painted the color wheel in school.
mixing and getting the right shade of colour was a bitch.
its damn hard lah.
and the damn acrylics and 10sheets of cartridge paper costs 35bucks.
thank goodness my mommy sponsored me;_;
if not i'd be a broke girl now.
damn it all.
im not sleepy,but i need to sleep soon,if not i wouldn't be able to get up!
good night:D

2006-10-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

ooh.
got a sweet surprise in the morning in the form of a wakeup call from chron.
thanks sugar!<3
if you didnt call me,i would have overslept hahah.
anyhow,brandbuilding and color are my modules for this block.
one of my lecturers has a thing against Bata and Poh Heng.
he keeps comparing bata to other luxury brands like prada and ferragamo.
haha super funny lah.
im really tired today.
had dsc meeting after class.
D:
im off to continue doing research.
good night!<3

2006-10-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"I dunno, press the button and find out."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

wtf.

oh and i have been tagged!
*RULES;
1. Post weird random stuffs about yourself.
2. At the end of the quiz, list the names of the 5 people who you want next to do this and leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules. (im gona ignore this cause im lazy -_-,ok fine i'll tag ONE person ok!)

Randomness:
1)i love rainbows.
2)i love tall fair handsome guys.they MUST be lean or towards the skinny side.beefcakes need not apply.ugh.cause beefcakes are usually shorter then me and i would not want a boyfriend thats shorter then me.(thankfully,chron's taller then me:D)
3)i have a slight(okay fine,MAJOR)obession with stripped,checkered or black clothes.
4)i love the taste of fresh blood.
5)i hate bathing in a wet toilet.as in,if the toilet has been used by another person before myself.
6)i have to cook dinner in 15mins.
7)last but not least,uhh what should i say.hmm.i love chron! <3
there been there done that.
and im tagging clarice:D

2006-10-01T13:11:00.000+08:00

Woah.
sorry for the fucking emo post last night man.
D:

Creativity Survey
~un~// inspiration::
what's more important, creativity or success?: Creaitivity
would you rather be under the rainbow or over the stars?: Under the rainbow
do you create digital art?: Sometimes,for class and when I'm bored.
do you play an instrument?: Guitar in the past.
pink hair or black hair?: Well,black.I'd try pink one day though:D
eyeshadow or lipstick?: Eyeshadow
should boys wear makeup?: If they want to,but I think they should just stick to eyeliner alone.
what country inspires you?: Japan
can you speak another language?: Chinese? I cant speak it well though hahah.
primitive or futuristic?: well,it depends on the situation.
Dali or Sargent?: Dali.
favorite color?: Black,purple and gold.
Victorian or Cyber? which is better? do the two mix: I like both actually.And a mix would be cool(:
what/who is your muse? Don't laugh, we all have a muse of some sort!: hmm.i guessit would be music?

~deux~//beliefs:
where were you before you were born?: in my momma's womb?unconscious but not non-existant.
is rap poetry?: I don't listen to much rap so i cant say.
should musicians be judged by their fashion sense (or lack of it): well,it depends.what matters is the MUSIC,so even though they look awesome,but their music is only mediocre,i'll give them a miss.
are you religious?: Not really,no.
if you are religious, do you think it shows in your creativity?: I'm not religious.
what do you think about photos?: I love them.It's a way of preserving memories.So just in case i lose my memory one day,i can remember my past by looking at the photos i took:D
martial arts or dance?: Dance. Although some martial arts can be considered a dance form as well right?
does beauty lie within everything?: No.
if you answered yes, what is beautiful about a roach? tell me..: wtf i hate roaches.
is pop an actual music force to be appreciated?: No.
would a rose by any other name smell as sweet?: What kind of question is this -_- but yes it would smell as sweet.
Is nature beautiful, or is it an ugly place?: Nature is everything.
is expensive clothing better than cheap clothing?: Well,if your paying a thousand bucks for just the brand..i dont think its worth it.If you do know how to dress up and accesorieze,a cheap outfit can look a million bucks:D
do you think all religions are the same?: I dont really bother.but no,all religions are unique.

~trois~//individuality
what do you think makes you unique? (ooh, a rhyme..sorta): Hmm.I'm a mix of hyperactiveness,moody moments and randomness.
what's your artistic gift to the world? (haha, more cheesiness -_-): EH? art and writing i guess.
are you...cynical or wide eyed in wonder at the world?: both actually.I have a very warped interpretation of the world.
what's the color of your soul? (I CAN'T stop today!! ahh, forgive me): my soul has different moods.so that means many colours..soooo the colours of the rainbow!
are you depressed?: Sometimes.
are you depressing?: I sure hope not! D:
If you draw/paint, what's the color most seen in your work?: My paintings are mostly very colourful,since i like rainbows alot:D
do you compose music?: Nope.i wish i could though:D
is your life haphazard or carefully planned?: Haphazard.everyday is a whole new experience.
Where do you hang out to get inspired/be artsy (ie--park, coffee shop, etc): Lying down and staring up into the sky,with my friends,sitting at the cafe,doing anything really.
does art make your life miserable?: Nah,i love art!
Do you think all creative people are meant to suffer?: Excuse me? NO FUCKING WAY.
what icons/items do you like to feature in your art?: Clothes! since im an aspiring fashion designer and all.
how would you describe your art style?: Pop art,gothic,anime/manga type drawings.

~quatre~//miscellany
ok. What do you think of Gwen Stefani?: Love her style.Her music's hit and miss.
cd covers are cool. Which do you think is the most creative?: MMhh.This is tough.but im going with Dir en Grey.(and no,dont make me decide which cd cover!i cant cause i love them all >o<)
Do you get bored easily?: Yeah,kinda.I have a short attention span.
which rock band is the most creative?: It can only be Dir en Grey!
stormy weather or beautiful blue skies?: Both!
Is it important to be mysterious?: Naw,mysterious people are all fakes anyway.
do you like wandering around at night?: Yes,but it depends on who i'm with.
If you met me, what would you say/do?: I dont even know you.probably say hi?
are graveyards beautiful or scary?: Beautiful in the day,but scary at night.
Sunset or moonlight?: Moonlight.
desert or forest?: Forest
Do you think clothes are important?: YES.
What's your fashion scene?: I like Japanese streetfashion.
and finally, the olde question..what do you think about the survey??: It's differentt from the other surveys i've done:D

http://www.bzoink.com/surveys/

2006-10-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

i feel like crying all of a sudden.
):
i just want to bawl my eyes out,and hope that at least someone around me would care.
good bye.

2006-09-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
WHAT ABOUT US:
» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends?
» Do you love me?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Would you kiss me?
» Do you have a crush on me?
» Are we close?
» Emotionally, what stands out?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I loveable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?

i dont eat breakfast.
D:

2006-09-30T16:20:00.000+08:00

took a few shots of sakito just now.
the lighting in my house is wonderful.
i love it so much!
*shameless pimping*
Please visit his LJ(and well,mine) for more pictures and a photostory!
Link: http://love-crusader.livejournal.com
:D

2006-09-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

this is the first time im up so fucking early.
i woke up at what..9am?
jerked awake at 4 in the morning,and finally managed to get some shut-eye at 6.
):
i personally think i look like shit now.
messed up hair and EYEBAGS.
what the hell.
better take a nap later in the afternoon.
then go for the gig at youthpark at night.
it starts at 7.
anyone going?

replies to tags: (just cause the tagboard is so damn small)
kaori: you are totally not a king. D:

yaqi: yes lets hang out after your promos.come to tp for lunch:D

icey: wth lah.stupid msn kept dc-ing on my last night.

chron: stop acting cute with all those smileys D: its such a girly thing to do man hahaha:D and yes awww<3

bombshellx': well,alright then,we shall go for caramel frapps in the future!

2006-09-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

theres something wrong with msn mannnn.
i keep getting dced.
and im not the only one because at this time,there would be at least 30 people online in my list,and theres only 1person online now.
-_-
somethings very wrong D:
went to east coast yesterday with shamayne and clarice.
proceeded to parkway to chill at coffee bean.
I'M HUNGRY MAN.
shit.
met shamayne in town today.
went to kino and heeren.
bought a pair of mickey mouse earrings:D
super cute lah.
and they were only 4bucks.
woot!
something random:

- [ ritsu ] - in My hands says:
lvl 1-got the pissed den must bitch
- [ ritsu ] - in My hands says:
lvl 2 - bad day bitch
[ ritsu ] - in My hands says:
lvl 3 - hates life bitch
- [ ritsu ] - in My hands says:
lvl 4 - hates everything bitch
- [ ritsu ] - in My hands says:
lvl 5 - ULTIMATE BITCH

shamayne's describing the levels of bitchiness to me.
hahahahaha.
its all a joke though.
ok then we slacked around kino so shamayne could get arena for victoria :S
then i proceeded to take the mrt to kovan to meet chron(<3),evan,hweelee,yaqi,joel and diana for dinner.
i didnt eat cause of loss of appetite these few days.
i'd eat a abit then not finish it.
mooched around abit more.
then took the train to dhoby gaut.took 16 home.
bathed and came online.
im so sleepy.
just had two slices of bread with melted cheese:D
feeling sleepy now.
random again:
i cant believe im saying this but chron looks pretty darn good in his long sleeved stripped shirts with the sleeves rolled up a little.add a look of concentration(esp when hes watching or doing something he likes) and like woahh. hot:D
why am i so random today D:
irritating sia.
im gona stop blogging here lah.
later all my random stuff in my mind comes out.
hahah.
good night<3

2006-09-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

I CUT MY HAIR:D
its short now.
like a mixture of ryutarou from plastic tree,ritsuka from loveless and L from deathnote.
hmm.
met farrah at 4. yes FOUR.
we were supposed to meet at 3,but she was late.
haha but its cool.
had mos for lunch,then we bummed around.
nothing much.
chron didnt want to leave sengkang,i didnt go over cause mom had already cooked dinner and there wasnt enough time.
hmm.
nothing much today.
yupps hopefully tmr i can go to the beach and enjoy:D
or meet up with someone to chill lah.
before school officially starts.
haha oh and does anyone know if we have to go to school on monday?
since CDS is conducted through block teaching now.
tell me through msn yeah?
thanks<3

2006-09-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

Hogwarts meme.taken from a friend's LJ.

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs
[ ] You have a lot of friends
[ ] You get along with everyone
[ ] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months
[ ] You love soccer
[ ] You love baseball (Expos forever)
[x] You're into writing and art
[ ] Favorite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory
[ ] Abortion is wrong
[x] The war against Iraq is unneeded
[x] One of your favorite colors is red or gold
[ ] Good grades at school
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[ ] You plan on going to college
TOTAL: 5

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[x] Politics suck.
[ ] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing
[ ] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[x] You're completely straight-edge.
[ ] You're very emotional
[ ] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[ ] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[x] You've made fun of at least one person this week.
TOTAL: 5

RAVENCLAW:
[x] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[ ] Sports suck.
[ ] You're shy.
[ ] Bush is trying his hardest
[x] You've been in love or are now.
[ ] Hate is completely unneeded.
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[ ] indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x] Every once in a while you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[x] Red is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] Serious is better than funny.
TOTAL: 8

SLYTHERIN:
[x] There's at least one person you hate.
[x] Basketball is a good sport.
[ ] Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You've lied about something serious.
[ ] You're a very deep person.
[x] You have considered suicide.
[ ] You are not very loyal.
[x] You like heavy metal
[x] They make school seem more important than it is.
[x] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] You've done drugs in the past month.
[ ] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[x] You have trust issues.
[x] Guilty until proven innocent.
TOTAL: 10

2006-09-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD.
my mom is officially going through menopause.
she screams at me for every little thing,even when it wasn't my fault.
she refuses to cook sometimes.
ok whatever,the family can survive if you don't cook.
but by threatening to throw our clothes onto the dog's newspaper(poop and pee included),thats officially psychotic.
by threatening to let the dog out of the house.
there was an incident once too.
she gave me a knife and asked me to kill myself.
and guess how old i was?
12.
how many of you have mother's just like mine?
its no wonder that so many youths these days refuse to go home early.
or rather,for my case.
i'd prefer to stay out as late as possible.
this would prevent me from going crazy getting blamed at home for nothing.
D:

2006-09-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep.
):
im so tired but i simply cant fall asleep.
this is bad.
my head's killing me too.
just a recap of the day.
went for dsc meeting in the morning.
then went to town to meet shamayne to collect her racket:D
congrats my friend.the racket is your baby now lawl.
then chron and yaqi came.
we watched pulse,i wasted 7bucks and one and a half hours of my life in the cinema.
i actually fell asleep!
then off to starbucks,then skatepark at sommerset.
had a good chat(and laugh) with yaqi.
sorry chron and shamayne >.< kinda ignored you guys today. i'll make up for it yeah? promise(:
then came home.feeling really tired now man.
but i cant sleep.
this is not good man.
when school reopens next week,i probably cant sleep at night,which means i cant wake up in the morning.
and..
sigh.
thats it man.
good day.

2006-09-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

went to the "stable" at pasir ris just now.
the poor ponies all look so jaded and depressed.
seeing that lifeless look in their eyes just kills me.
then went to the farms too.
there was a dog run!
i want to bring happy there,but he'd probably attack everyone.
haha damn.
the puppy farms..were..a horror.
sure the puppies were cute and all,but then again what baby animals arent?
but take a closer look at the enviroment they live in.
the cages are dirty,the puppies have ailments like sores,bloated tummies and hairless patches.
sigh.
i really feel sorry.
they're churning puppies out like clothes.
they arent doing quality control and all.
i just felt a little part of myself die when i went to the puppy farms.
had sakae at whitesands for dinner.
w00t. 15bucks gone down the drain.
meeting shamayne and the boyfriend tmr after the dsc meeting.
i need to chill this whole week.
when school starts,im screwed.
no more late nights chatting online and all.
BAH.
im going to bed now.
DSC meeting at 10.30 tmr i hope i can get up on time.
good night!

2006-09-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD.
everyone must watch "Prison Break" right now.
Wentworth Miller is so hot.
shit man.
for someone who has a crewcut,hes super freaking sexy.
the show's good too.
makes me a tad scared of American prisons.
the riot part freaked me out a little,as well as the random stabbing that happened out of the blue.
anyhow,im at episode 7 now.
gonna continue watching it tmr.
im not in the least bit sleepy right now.
i shall chat to my friends online:D
bye!

2006-09-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

"what goes around comes around what goes up must come down."
-taken from alicia key's hit, Karma.

i've always liked this song.
which is pretty weird for me if you know me well enough.
anyway i just want to say that i believe in fate and karma.
everything happens for a reason.
and thus people will get their desserts for doing wrong stuff.
anyhow,i've got my baby's phone with me now.
the motorola razor thingie.
its so slim,compact and light.
but the functions suck.
like really.
the keypad is so hard to type. (no wonder he doesnt like to reply via sms D:)
collected it for him yesterday.
went to youth park,then walked to skate park to meet his friends but the only one i kinda heard of was evan.
and thus..nothing much happened.
SO.
the show "Prison Break" is really good.
sis got the dvd's from a friend.
woah the guy is HOT.oh man.
went to parkway in the afternoon yaddayadda.
it was a pretty boring day today.
and now im off to continue with prison break.
bye!<3

2006-09-22T12:49:00.000+08:00

im at clarice's place now and like..
her keyboard is fucking hard to type.
and like blasting weezer song's are bliss.
i missed their songs.(stupid comp just HAD to crash on me D:)
currently waiting for clarice to finish bathing and drying her hair and blahblahblah.
haha.
i was a total complete stranger to myself the past few days.
scary balls huh.
but now im back to normal.
stayed over at clarice's yesterday.
we conferenced with my darling chron but he kinda fall asleep on us.
and soooooo.
after much talk and play,the 2 hyperactive girls(clarice and i) and the 1 sexually active girl(shamayne) decided to sleep.
woke up at like 9plus in the morning.
which is bloody early siaaaaa.
can die!
we walked out for dimsum.
YUMMY.
it was pretty cheap too.
about 5bucks per person.
we had hagao,charsiewpau,siewmai,lotusleafrice and jixiongbao.
im not sure whether i got the names right though :/
sorry!
anyway im having a headache now.
the hols are ending next week.
it just flew by like i dont know,an aeroplane or something.
hahahahaha.
anyways clarice's flat karate board keyboard is damn hard to use sooooo im going off now!
bye my ducklings.

clarice wants to invade sooooo..
TARA LOVES ME MAN. we made hot passionate love on the upper deck of the double decker bed. wooooot. hahas yeah rights. please donate to the clarice foundation kthxbye! <3

oh fuck dont believe the part about us making hot passionate love.
she was singing last night.
and because of that we ALL couldnt sleep.
mannnn.
i wonder what will happen to me if i didnt have these kind of friends.
i'd probably be dead and rotting by now.
and thus,end of post!
bye!<3

2006-09-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

i was fucking pissed off this afternoon.
the stupid thing is that i dont know what the fuck im so pissed about.
and everything's my fault.
so like.
whatever ok?
i dont give a flying damn anymore.
i better go do something relaxing.
on a side note,i got an email telling me what classes im in the next block.
im taking brand building in the morning and color in the afternoon.
sigh.
and i chose japanese as my CDS subject.
hmm.
i want to go to the beach.
D:

2006-09-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

fucking moron.
so just like sod off.
ok rant over.

bye.

2006-09-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

hmm.
went to watch the devil wear's prada today with my sister.
i just have to say i love the outfits in the movie!
i would kill for them.
ugh i am turning into such a brand whore.
this is bad because i know i cant afford them,yet i still want them.
shit!
went to funan the it mall,which imho is about as depressing as a funeral.
its all grey and dreary there i just feel like crying.
haha.
sis bought some camera filters and stuff.
uhhh then went to raffles city to look at the bag that i really want.
i still want it.
;_;
i am not myself these days.
i..am thinking more then i should be.
come on,i feel more stressed during the holidays then when i have school.
what kind of logic is that!
like honestly.
i think its the fact that i have too much time on my hands.
im just thankful for clarice,shamayne and chron for being there when i was alone and in need of entertainment.
also,im having a problem about trust.
once bitten,twice shy.
thats what they always say,and its true in my case now.
i better be prepared.
had a fun time with clarice shamayne and chron.
playing snap was hilarious.
playing stress with chron was..tiring.
i was laughing so much man.
its the type of laughter thats like,omg i cant breathe stop making me laugh damnit!
my cheeks,kidney-area and stomach were aching.
bahh.its been a long time since i laughed so freely.

2006-09-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

hello blogging from clarice's house now.
here with shamayne and chron and clarice of course:D
i just want to say that im really glad everything is over now!
and chron is being pretty retarded behind me,trying to be the next crocodile hunter..
wtf?
right now,shamayne and chron are at war.
PILLOW FIGHT D:

2006-09-17T15:27:00.000+08:00

looks like whatever i said has fallen onto deaf ears.
so forget it.
fiona,thanks for giving an outsider's point of view.i appreciate it muchies!
chron you know whatever it is,i still love you and will respect your decisions.

*added at 7.40pm*
i really cant be bothered to blog about this whole matter anymore.
im tired,and i need a break.
i just hope people will not jump to conclusions.
it isnt nice to see the end of what was once a happy friendship over a trivial matter.
i feel guilty.
like,guilty from the bottom of my heart and may i burn in hell type.
ugh.

2006-09-17T13:00:00.000+08:00

replies to tags cause the tagboard is just too damn small.but maybe thats cause tags are meant to be short messages haha ok whatever on to the replies.

bombshellx' and incendia:

I'm really trying my best not to aggravate this matter further. If you think that I am talking behind your back,so be it. There's nothing I can really do about what other's think about me. If you have taken any offence, I apologise with all my heart.
If I were to put myself in your shoes, I understand why you are acting this way, as I appear to be "the girl" that "stole" your best friend away. It has happened to me before, and I know how shitty it feels. But hey,life is all about giving and taking. You can not just simply take all the time, and not give anything in return. I know I may sound naggy and preachy and defensive and what-not, but I feel like life works this way. But then again, this is my own opinion, so you have every right to ignore what I say alright?(:
But all in all, I have no idea how this stupid incident came about, nor do I want to know. All I want is to get along so we can hang out in school together and what-not. In fact,on my first meeting with you, bombshellx', I thought you were really nice and sweet. I really did not expect you to act this way towards me at all, but I guess I should not judge people by appearances cause that's just shallow.
Sorry to everyone that feels hurt by what I have done.
I'd love to get this matter out of my mind, and as Incendia has said, to work out an understanding. If anything, feel free to add me on msn, or talk to me on the phone. As said below, you can get my contacts from Shamayne, Chron or Hwee Lee.

I learnt something today.
Anger and jealousy are very strong emotions.