Monday, August 14, 2006


i'm always in a bad mood these days.
i think its cause of family,money and friendship problems.
sometimes,i wish someone would take them away from me.
i d'rather be alone,then stuffed full of problems.
i've been venting my anger on every outlet available.
sakito,my friends,my work,myself...
one more major problema and the blade's gona appear again i guess.
its really hard for me to cope with all this problems.
it creates stress and strife in me,and i feel irritated
ok this is starting to sound like a freaking poem.
i think i'll get a tattoo.
the pain..would be nice.
too bad im not 18 and my parents are against tattoos.
im sick of my friends in poly.
they arent trust worthy.
they only want to have fun,without bothering about the expenses of the rest.
it sickens me.
i want to go back to secondary school.
where everyones family.
anyway,im very happy now.
so happy...
happy to be dying..
happy to be ignored.
happy to be living..
happy that i dont give a flying damn about what people think about me.
i just cant take it anymore.
ooo cryptic signs..
whatever.
i just cant wait for the holidays.
so that i can be released from the people surrounding me in poly.
they are the ones making me depressed.
i'll be a hermit during all 6weeks.
after they've seen my true self,i doubt they'd want to ask me out anyway.
and now for the major rant:

I HATE THIS FUCKING WORLD.
I WISH I'D DIE.
STUPID FUCKS.
THINKING IN THAT ARROGANT WAY OF THEIRS.
YOU THINK I ENJOY IT?
I FUCKING DONT GIVE A DAMN.
ALL I WANT IS TO DO WELL.

there.
i feel much better now.
and you guys know its all done in a fit of anger.
now that that's off my chest.
i'll apologise for it.
sorry.

Tara went mad at 1:21 AM