Saturday, July 16, 2005


somebody will lend me 750 bucks
im damn irritated at my mom la.
she says i don study.
FUCK LA.
she just doesnt see me study alright?
i don care.
im getting caritas no matter what u say.
now its all in me to persuade sis to lend me the money.
and if she doesnt.
well.
boo for me.
they just don understand this is my last chance to get fcs.
i guess i really took to fcs in sg for granted.
i thought it would be here forever,
and now look what happened.
i guess it'll be my fault if i really cant get caritas huh.
forget it.
if i cant have him
i might not want to get another doll in my whole life.
or until the open wounds close.
i hate my mom.
i officially hate her,
shes bloody fucked up ok?
i don wana see her face.
tonight going for baybeats.
i don wana return home early.
cant stand the sight of her.
makes me fuming mad.
she keeps on giving me false hope.
im happy one time.
and sad another.
i dont think my heart can take it.
one of these days.
u'll see me have a heart attack.
im sure u will.
then maybe my mom will regret.
but i doubt she will.
she hates me to the core.
so much for mrs lingesh saying.
mother's love is best.
just obey ur mother and u'll be fine
whatever man!
fuck
im depressed.
she loves everyone else more then me.
i want to die now.
now.
i might not even be able to get you.
im surprised i even am still alive.

Emotionless
Good Charlotte

Hey Dad
I'm writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you how you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart
Are you happy out there in this great wide world
Do you think about your sons
Do you miss your little girl
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night
Do you even wonder if we're alright
We're alright
We're alright

It's been a long, hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not ok
But we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long, lost memory of mine
I spent so many years
Learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

The days I spent so
Cold so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There's things I'll take
To my grave
But I'm ok
I'm ok

It's been a long, hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not ok
But we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long, lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
Yeah, I'm still alive

And sometimes
I forgive
And this time
I'll admit
That I miss you
Said I miss you

It's been a long, hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not ok
But we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long, lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

And sometimes
I forgive
And this time
I'll admit
That I miss you
I miss you

Hey Dad

i love this song.

Tara went mad at 11:58 AM