Sunday, July 17, 2005


ok.
i have thought throughly.
spent the whole night and day thinking.
i will not order caritas now.
altho my mom mocked me and said.
"have you ordered you're doll yet?"
then i said no.
then she said "Too expensive right?"
FUCK YOU OK.
even if you wont loan ur daughter money.
i can still get the money some other way.
its just that if i get caritas or naoki now.
they will not have a good life with me.
they'd be in their boxes or bags.
just lying around.
in short.
i simply do not have the time to look after them now.
if i want,
i can be bitch and order.
but they wont enjoy life with me.
think of it.
i'd be in debt to my sister(shes the noe who will pay the bulk of the doll if i get it)
then i have no money to buy clothes for them.
and that i have no time to sew clothes for them.
cause of the o levels.
so i've decided to study hard.
keep my boys in mind.
and hopefully the mother knows someone in japan who can order the FCS for me!
yes.
so this are my reasons for not ordering caritas or naoki now.
even tho they are FCS's.
I'm sorry Naoki and Caritas.
you'd have to wait.

Tara went mad at 9:56 AM