Thursday, December 16, 2004


hello.
im at home now.
cosplay is just 3days away.-dies-
i havent bought my shoes yet.
havent made my garters yet.
but im gona do it later.phew.
taking part in competition.
ganbarimasu!
gona meet kouji 2mw to get the black shorts for my cos.
hopefully it can fit me...
haha and maybe gona get my shoes either today or 2mw.
yayness.
yesterday went to pj's sch.ngee ann poly.
haha got off one stop to early cause we were following this pink shirt guy!
my goodness we had to walk so far.
me and sher were laughing so much.
when we finally reached we were so damn tired.
turns out we were supposed to cos and let the public know more about cosplay in general.
haha got this two guys to wear the POT jacket and Yura's cos.
so cute!
he really looked like kawamura.-squeals-
anyway.i did my zan costume.
didnt get any really nice pics as usual even though i had my own camera.
darn it all.
anyway.my costume was pretty nice.
hehe maybe i should stop cosing as toshiya?
leave me a comment on that k?
gahhh i want more clothes!
i want corsets and skirts and dresses and shoes and accesories and the list goes on.
realised that kozi is sooooooooooooo cool!
love his dressing and i think hes kinda cute.
hmmmmmmm.
but i still prefer toshiya and miyavi.
okay i'd better shut up now.got lotsa stuff to do.
but im feeling sleepy.
oh yeah went for amaths tuition.
bloody mr ng said i looked like avril lavigne.
EEE..
i dont like her.
im not a wannabe.
oh haha.
yesterday i was sylvester sim.
me and sher mocked him like mad sia..
i posed as him and then sher was the rabid fangirl.
took the pictures.
freaking hilarious.
better not do it too often.
later we get killed by his fan club.
blaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
hes another wannabe.
"Oh look at me.I'm a jrocker."
whatever man.
if all those stupid ah lian fans of his start to listen to jrock.
im gona go berserk.
can't imagine that kind of people liking jrock.
even worst,my toshiya and miyavi.
-kills the ah lians-
but they'll probably think its too scary.(i hope)
oh yeah did i tell you about the digusting lolita fashion at far east level one?
OMFG.
sick okay.
hot pink and white.
and its like so skimpy!
excuse me but that is not lolita fashion.
if you ever associate the original(a.k.a the ones that like it before sly came out) with the fake(a.k.a aly fans), don't be ridiculous.
please. we're not ahlians.
we're far from them.
i'm not a stereo type.(or i think im not)
i dont care about what people think about me.
about what i wear and what i do and what i like.
i dont give a damn.
okay that aside...
when i went for amaths.
shamyne wenxin charlene t zen were all like so cold towards me.
what did i do man.
i happily came into class,
cheerfully said hi to them.
and they just said hi and nothign else.
right.thats not all.
when i sat behind them,they didnt even talk to me when i tried to talk to them.
so i got sad and went to sit by myself by the ficking window.
fuck it man.
i really felt like crying then.
right there in the classroom with everyone in it.
i was that peeved and depressed.
so i wrote a letter to shamayne.
i msged pj and she told me that shamayne was also ignoring her and tez.
wtf.
and when i msged shamayne on her phone.
she didnt reply me.
oh well.
i dont think there's much i can do.
man.
i dont feel like talking about this anymore.
hmm i wana sew a priest's outfit.
like toshiya's one in aint afraid to die.
i really love that song.
its so beautiful.
like mourning for a departed lover.
oh totchi baby.
please come to singapore with the rest of dir en grey and play here?!
i really want to see them at least once.
i've never loved a particular genre of music this much before.
hmmm im going mad again.
saving plenty of pictures of toshiya.
why am i sucha sucker for bishies,
haha okay i am mad.
shut up tara.
go do your work or something.
but i dont want to do it.
i feel like quitting school.
damn it.
your mother wont be happy with it you know.
but she wants me to take science.
and her expectations of me are too high.
she keeps on comparing me to the brother and sister.
both of them are smart.
im the more artistically inclined person here hello.
but you know.
the day before psle results
she asked the sister.
"is it okay if tara goes into normal acad?"
fuck off man.
do you think i'm that stupid?
i mean although i like art and slack off alot doesnt mean i cant make it into express.
bloody pissers.
and when i got into a sub science class(pure bio and combined chem and phys)
she said.
are you sure?
i thought for sure you would get into the art class cause your so dumb.
i think im suffering from verbal abuse t home.
she always puts me down.
"your so stupid."
"why cant you be smart"
"your ugly and stupid"
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i think i'm really going mad.
or suffering from depression.
i really dont know.
okay.
goodbye everyone.
remember to drop me a comment on the toshiya cosplay thing yeah?
lol.

Tara went mad at 4:58 AM