Thursday, December 30, 2004


hello.
toking to sher now.
altho she seems t be happier talking to kyoist and kaori.
owells.
what can i do?
sit in the corner and pout?
never.
so i shall blog.
yes i shall.
right.
my new fave song is chou by amano tsukiko.
totally rocks man.
i love it so much.
i was thinking of doing a fatal frame cosplay.
but no one is tall enough to be my twin.
actually.
no one really wants to do it with me.
guess i am a loner in the cosplay circle huh.
i can't do anything though.
went to help the NUS people today at orchard.
had psl meeting in the morn first.
bought a hotcakes happy meal.
got aladin toy.
laura bridget shamayne and i were having loads of fun just trying to get the flying carpet over the bloody ramp.
it takes skill i tell you.
i had a deprieved childhood.
so dont worry about me.
im okay.
seriously.
no one really bothers about me anyway.
im just there in the background.
silently supporting my friends.
when they have no one to talk to,they come to me.
but when they are around their OTHER friends,
they kinda just thrust me aside.
as if i were just a mere puppet.
i dont enjoy it much.
fuck.
im crying.
i dont cry often.
so no worries about anything.
right?
right.
i dont think so.
but who cares.
no one does.
ah i duno.
maybe im just being a bitch.
maybe my friends DO care for me.
if they do.
maybe they'd treat me better.
instead of ignoring me when their better friends come along.
ahhhhhhh mou!
im getting pissed over nothing.
fuck.
one more thing.
do i really exist?
or am i just a mere shell living on earth?
i am really wondering.
like.
maybe we're all just some twisted experiment.
hmm i really don't know.

Tara went mad at 6:37 PM